As of 6/22/09 things have drastically changed I lost my best friend due to a circumstance I felt compelled to tell the truth and set myself free of the awful burden that was placed upon me however in doing this I lost a best friend who was the only family I had here and now I am just lost wondering around aimlessly I know God is my saviour and will help me through this but it still hurts to lose someone so very close after almost 6 years and unfortunately the person who I told the truth about was the very one who caused her to be taken away from me ,I am greiveing the loss and I am heartbroken ,I feel like no matter what I feel compelled to do even though it was the right thing to do and I did it with a pure heart and pure mind I am being punished for even daring to follow God's path and his awnser to my prayers about what to do I feel as though no matter how much I do for people no matter how good my intentions are it always seems to just come up as people thinking that I reacting based on emotions ,now lately I am consumed with emotions and saddness and loss plus the feeling of utter betrayl and no matter where I turn lately I seem to be getting the full blame for what happened alot of people may not agree with what I did but alot do so hindsight is fifty fifty and looking back if I had to do it all over againI would have gone about it differently ,but I still would have told the truth ,and now of course I am being blamed for causing injury and devastion to this person ,when in turn they hurt me twice as bad as I did them idk anymore 
