Scars in Heaven 10/11/2021
this morning I woke up late at 7.45 am first full sleep for a while, i have been running on empty for the last few days
Only had two hours the other day so i kinda had to catch up, it Wednesday, not got much to do today which is great but then i have too much time on my hands and i get bored fast , waking my husband soon, its 8.35 am unsure what time my hubby went to bed last night he stays up playing games or watching tv i can't watch due to my mental health as sometimes i find things too graphic, my hubby been having a really hard time at the moment, i mean my hubby isn't Christian and i don't think he ever will be, its not for him he says. so i don't push it at all. up to him at the end of the day
The first thing today is to get breakfast, have to wait until hubby gets up for that and take my medication but he will wake up soon, i would have my first coffee of the day but i can't get into the sink to fill the kettle so i will have to wait until them, i have juice at the moment so i should be ok
listening to Klove at the moment , find it so helpful to listen to that type of music its help me to keep positive and focused on Jesus
i need to get a bible for my tablet so i have it with me where ever I go , i spend most of the time at the moment writing Christian quotes and positive quotes on facebook , but it would help me if facebook would work sometimes they have started this new company but haven't fixed out how slow facebook is at the moment .
And am unsure of what i make of that either am not into VR stuff or other VR stuff my hubby has had a VR Thing before but i wasn't very interested in it , plus i think that teach should only go so far .
Two years ago i lost a friend who had BPD to suicide ,Sarah was a good friend and always supportive to me but she struggled so much with her past and her BPD and wasn't getting the help she needed , she ended her life , also 10 years ago i lost my Step dad to suicide , its hurts to lose people like that , Sarah has tried to get help she was even in hpstial but they always let her out after a few days and she was to cope with her mental health , my dad he had a few attempts but was always found 10 years ago he wasn't , and now he is gone , i have felt suicidal myself before my step dad killed himself , so i should have seen it and i blame myself for his death . There is a new Song by casting crowns called Scars in heaven its a very beautiful song and makes me think about them both ,heard it on Klove . wear a necklees with the Serenity prayer to remind me of them both and to help me deal with my Scrupulosity OCD and BPD remembering both of them and helping me to focus on Jesus .
Scars in Heaven By Casting Crowns
this morning I woke up late at 7.45 am first full sleep for a while, i have been running on empty for the last few days
Only had two hours the other day so i kinda had to catch up, it Wednesday, not got much to do today which is great but then i have too much time on my hands and i get bored fast , waking my husband soon, its 8.35 am unsure what time my hubby went to bed last night he stays up playing games or watching tv i can't watch due to my mental health as sometimes i find things too graphic, my hubby been having a really hard time at the moment, i mean my hubby isn't Christian and i don't think he ever will be, its not for him he says. so i don't push it at all. up to him at the end of the day
The first thing today is to get breakfast, have to wait until hubby gets up for that and take my medication but he will wake up soon, i would have my first coffee of the day but i can't get into the sink to fill the kettle so i will have to wait until them, i have juice at the moment so i should be ok
listening to Klove at the moment , find it so helpful to listen to that type of music its help me to keep positive and focused on Jesus
i need to get a bible for my tablet so i have it with me where ever I go , i spend most of the time at the moment writing Christian quotes and positive quotes on facebook , but it would help me if facebook would work sometimes they have started this new company but haven't fixed out how slow facebook is at the moment .
And am unsure of what i make of that either am not into VR stuff or other VR stuff my hubby has had a VR Thing before but i wasn't very interested in it , plus i think that teach should only go so far .
Two years ago i lost a friend who had BPD to suicide ,Sarah was a good friend and always supportive to me but she struggled so much with her past and her BPD and wasn't getting the help she needed , she ended her life , also 10 years ago i lost my Step dad to suicide , its hurts to lose people like that , Sarah has tried to get help she was even in hpstial but they always let her out after a few days and she was to cope with her mental health , my dad he had a few attempts but was always found 10 years ago he wasn't , and now he is gone , i have felt suicidal myself before my step dad killed himself , so i should have seen it and i blame myself for his death . There is a new Song by casting crowns called Scars in heaven its a very beautiful song and makes me think about them both ,heard it on Klove . wear a necklees with the Serenity prayer to remind me of them both and to help me deal with my Scrupulosity OCD and BPD remembering both of them and helping me to focus on Jesus .
Scars in Heaven By Casting Crowns
