I am 31 years old. I had a rough childhood, but I know of people who have had worse. I'm independent, I recently moved from California to Texas over a year ago. I'm not married, no children. In 2007 decided to re dedicate my life to Christ. The problem is, I have prayed and I feel like I simply exist. For years I would self medicate with weed or alcohol. Now I am trying something new, and just praying and church. At 31 I have no idea what I want or where I'm going. I mean, I pay my own bills and take care of myself like I should, but I don't have any long term goals for myself. I don't even know what type of goals to have. I seek out relationships with men hoping to find a husband so that I can just live in his life. No kids, no husband, I'm just out here dangling and confused. I pray, but I still haven't gotten the answer or I haven't oaid close attention. I really need guidance. I'm too old to be so unsure in life and so unorganized. Has anyone else ever been through this? I'm so disgusted with me right now. 
