I just gave my life to the Lord last year. Before that I managed to mess up my life really bad and now feel stuck with the consequences. I'm living with a man I'm not married to, have been for 12 years. We have two children together. Both of my children just recently excepted Jesus as their personal Savior. My boyfriend, Dave, is an unbeliever. We are both still legally married to someone else although my divorce is almost final. Dave who hasn't been with his legal wife for over 20 years has not filed for divorce yet and does not seem to be in a rush to do so despite his promises to do so. I'm convicted every day I live in this sin. God won't let me go about it. I've pleaded with God to open Dave's eyes and let him believe. I don't know whether or not I should even pursue marriage with Dave when he is not a Christian. I love God with all my heart and want to obey Him. My children and their well being are so important to me and I know me leaving Dave would break their hearts because he is a good daddy. He is a good man to me. Dave has forgiven me for a lot of stuff I did in my past that was very hurtful and he loves me.
I love him too. But love God more. I tried to live with him without having a sexual relationship with him so that we could all be under the same roof as a family, but not live in sin. But it caused so much friction and unrest in our other wise happy home that I eventually gave into him. I know I can't live with him peacefully that way and I can't live with an up roar. Should I leave him? Should I break our family apart? I almost did once and my daughter cried so much I couldn't do it. My heart hurts so bad. My parents who are both Christians are coming to visit us from PA to FL where I live at the end of this month. I asked my Dad to take Dave aside and talk to him about excepting Jesus. My Dad said he would. My Dad used to be a pastor and is very good with one on one talking to other men. My parents both love Dave very much and would like to see us get married. Dave is a hard working family man who doesn't drink or do drugs or beat me up and doesn't prohibit me to go to church and raise my kids in my faith. Please pray for his salvation and please give me any Godly advice. If any of you have ever wanted to obey God so bad but felt stuck in a situation where you feel like you can't please don't hesitate to blog me back.
I love him too. But love God more. I tried to live with him without having a sexual relationship with him so that we could all be under the same roof as a family, but not live in sin. But it caused so much friction and unrest in our other wise happy home that I eventually gave into him. I know I can't live with him peacefully that way and I can't live with an up roar. Should I leave him? Should I break our family apart? I almost did once and my daughter cried so much I couldn't do it. My heart hurts so bad. My parents who are both Christians are coming to visit us from PA to FL where I live at the end of this month. I asked my Dad to take Dave aside and talk to him about excepting Jesus. My Dad said he would. My Dad used to be a pastor and is very good with one on one talking to other men. My parents both love Dave very much and would like to see us get married. Dave is a hard working family man who doesn't drink or do drugs or beat me up and doesn't prohibit me to go to church and raise my kids in my faith. Please pray for his salvation and please give me any Godly advice. If any of you have ever wanted to obey God so bad but felt stuck in a situation where you feel like you can't please don't hesitate to blog me back.
