So, im about to give my testomy and hopefully no one judges me cause its very hard for me to talk about it and i struggle with just knowing some of the things i went through as a women:
well ok lets start at the begining ok so my dad was a drunk and alcholic. i was close to him when i was a baby from the time i was born until like 3. when i was 3 my dad walked out on my mom and i. he still saw my mom on the side but wasnt living with us. he started denying me. while this was going on i was being molested by my own grandfather ( my dads dad) my moms dad steped up to the plate and started raising me. when i was 8 was the first time i was raped by my grandfather. at the age 5 i had my first boyfriend his name was Justin Wise. ok so then at 12 i moved so i had to break up with justin. when i was 14 i ended up pregant by my own grandfather and was forced to get an abortion. that killed me inside knowing it was a live baby but knowing that my gradfather did something horrible to me at this point my parents still not believing me they were thinking i was having sex behind there backs and thats how i got pregnant. so at the age 18 i got with my kindergarden sweetheart Justin again and i moved up there. we started attending church reguarlly but we wernt getting anywhere so we just went but not accepting it. i ended up pregnant at 18. i had connor wise at 11/26/2008 weighing 8 lbs 1 oz 20.5 inches long. so justin and i decided to save up for a wedding and get married. we got married March 7th 2009. so about 5 months go by and we have a horrible house fire the night before the fire justin was drinking and had a coupil of his friends over i took all there keys in the morning i gave them back justin had a long night and so did connor i went downstairs to see my friend trish and i told her i was going to wake connor up cause i didnt feel right being downstairs without him so i went up i woke him out of his sleep and brought him down ten mins later i still didnt feel right so i told trish that i was going to wake justin up and asked her if she could watch connor for 5 mins she said yes so i went up and woke justin up justin came down stairs and we were all talking. they way that our neibors house and my house were set up is they were apartments that were attached the only thing was there was a thin board between them. so we were down at trishs for about ten mins after i woke justin up and we smelled smoke coming from upstairs. well somewhere in our other neighbors house there started a fire so i had just woke my husband and my son up just in time and i yelled fire lets get out i grabbed connor, his shoes, his bottle and diaper bag and i went out the front door. justin soon followed. well it turns out it was the jewlery place and it was cause but not changing the wiring system in so long. so after that connor stayed with justins mom which was just right down the road to where we used to live. we lived in the back yard of his sisters house. so the one night we were having a camp fire and i had two of my friends over to have a good time well i had to go to the bathroom so i told my husband that im going in to the bathroom and ill be right back out i gave him a kiss and went to the bathroom when i came back out they were no where to be found so my thinking i looked in the tent and they were having a three some i FLIPPED. i was like what the heck is goin on. i grabbed them by there hair and through them out i beat the crap out of them justin is peeling me off the one girl and he says what do you think your doing i say what the heck do you think im doing im beatin the crap outa her and your next anyways i didnt hit him cause i had a heart for him but i grabbed my things went and got my son and went down to my parents house. well i got with this other man named jimmy and he used to beat me and rape me all the time and if i didnt do what he wanted me to i would be in the hospital. so he made me start to prostitute. he would only give me 10% of the money i made and kept the rest to himself. he would have his friends come over and rape me when i was over. he controled me. so i started to go to church me and my son on a regular basis. i went on a sunday one morning and there was a guest speaker. they showed the movie passion and after word he said how can people reject someone how has love for you even though you spit on him and reject him over and over again. he asked if anyone wanted to recieve jesus as there personal savior and i raised my hand. i accepted jesus that day. a month later i got a call from charleston job corps center that ive been accepted that monday i got on the plane and came here. now im bettering myself for my son and i and im here to do something spictacular with this center i developed a christian club i go to school everyday and go to church on sundays, and wendsdays i also go to the house of pray on fridays. god has really changed me for the better i always think in everything i do before i do it W.W.J.D. what would jesus do if he was right in front of me seeing me do it would i do it then? jesus is always right beside me so thats why when we do something we got to think before we do it. so be careful and love god and remember the two golden rules in life number 1. Love God Love People. Number Two Talk Life Walk Love. Thanks.
well ok lets start at the begining ok so my dad was a drunk and alcholic. i was close to him when i was a baby from the time i was born until like 3. when i was 3 my dad walked out on my mom and i. he still saw my mom on the side but wasnt living with us. he started denying me. while this was going on i was being molested by my own grandfather ( my dads dad) my moms dad steped up to the plate and started raising me. when i was 8 was the first time i was raped by my grandfather. at the age 5 i had my first boyfriend his name was Justin Wise. ok so then at 12 i moved so i had to break up with justin. when i was 14 i ended up pregant by my own grandfather and was forced to get an abortion. that killed me inside knowing it was a live baby but knowing that my gradfather did something horrible to me at this point my parents still not believing me they were thinking i was having sex behind there backs and thats how i got pregnant. so at the age 18 i got with my kindergarden sweetheart Justin again and i moved up there. we started attending church reguarlly but we wernt getting anywhere so we just went but not accepting it. i ended up pregnant at 18. i had connor wise at 11/26/2008 weighing 8 lbs 1 oz 20.5 inches long. so justin and i decided to save up for a wedding and get married. we got married March 7th 2009. so about 5 months go by and we have a horrible house fire the night before the fire justin was drinking and had a coupil of his friends over i took all there keys in the morning i gave them back justin had a long night and so did connor i went downstairs to see my friend trish and i told her i was going to wake connor up cause i didnt feel right being downstairs without him so i went up i woke him out of his sleep and brought him down ten mins later i still didnt feel right so i told trish that i was going to wake justin up and asked her if she could watch connor for 5 mins she said yes so i went up and woke justin up justin came down stairs and we were all talking. they way that our neibors house and my house were set up is they were apartments that were attached the only thing was there was a thin board between them. so we were down at trishs for about ten mins after i woke justin up and we smelled smoke coming from upstairs. well somewhere in our other neighbors house there started a fire so i had just woke my husband and my son up just in time and i yelled fire lets get out i grabbed connor, his shoes, his bottle and diaper bag and i went out the front door. justin soon followed. well it turns out it was the jewlery place and it was cause but not changing the wiring system in so long. so after that connor stayed with justins mom which was just right down the road to where we used to live. we lived in the back yard of his sisters house. so the one night we were having a camp fire and i had two of my friends over to have a good time well i had to go to the bathroom so i told my husband that im going in to the bathroom and ill be right back out i gave him a kiss and went to the bathroom when i came back out they were no where to be found so my thinking i looked in the tent and they were having a three some i FLIPPED. i was like what the heck is goin on. i grabbed them by there hair and through them out i beat the crap out of them justin is peeling me off the one girl and he says what do you think your doing i say what the heck do you think im doing im beatin the crap outa her and your next anyways i didnt hit him cause i had a heart for him but i grabbed my things went and got my son and went down to my parents house. well i got with this other man named jimmy and he used to beat me and rape me all the time and if i didnt do what he wanted me to i would be in the hospital. so he made me start to prostitute. he would only give me 10% of the money i made and kept the rest to himself. he would have his friends come over and rape me when i was over. he controled me. so i started to go to church me and my son on a regular basis. i went on a sunday one morning and there was a guest speaker. they showed the movie passion and after word he said how can people reject someone how has love for you even though you spit on him and reject him over and over again. he asked if anyone wanted to recieve jesus as there personal savior and i raised my hand. i accepted jesus that day. a month later i got a call from charleston job corps center that ive been accepted that monday i got on the plane and came here. now im bettering myself for my son and i and im here to do something spictacular with this center i developed a christian club i go to school everyday and go to church on sundays, and wendsdays i also go to the house of pray on fridays. god has really changed me for the better i always think in everything i do before i do it W.W.J.D. what would jesus do if he was right in front of me seeing me do it would i do it then? jesus is always right beside me so thats why when we do something we got to think before we do it. so be careful and love god and remember the two golden rules in life number 1. Love God Love People. Number Two Talk Life Walk Love. Thanks.
