December 25, 2012
I did it again...I woke up not remembering half of my evening. How many times have I done this before I ask myself? Oh one too many and yet I continue to "binge" drink, yes I said binge drinking. You see for many years I used to tell myself that I didn't have a drinking problem, I used to say oh I didn't eat enough so I got really drunk. That seemed to be my excuse each time I would get super drunk and make a fool of myself and hurt others in the process. I can type away and tell you my drunk nights and stories but if I did, I would never get to the point as to why I decided to quit drinking. I will however share a few stories that were caused due to my drinking that really has affected my family.
One evening I went out to a friends house to have a few drinks, well it went from one to too many drinks. Knowing that I was going to drink I gave my friend my car keys, trying to be responsible. I thought I'd sleep it off so I slept for a few hours and thought I was ok, so I took my keys from my friend (she was drunk too) and drove home. The next morning my mother knocked on my door and asked what happened to my car. I flipped out and thought someone had broken into my car. Well that wasn't it....I crashed my car. It cost nearly $8,000.00 to have it fixed. Luckily my insurance took care of it. So you think I quit drinking? No!!! I should have right but I didn't. Then some time later I went out for a few and thought I was ok to drive which I was but we were heading out for more drinks. Guess what? I hit a car and luckily I wasn't drunk but I am sure that had the cops smelled me and had given me a breath test, I would have a DUI. Ok now you are probably saying she quit! Nope!!!! Kept on drinking and in the midst of all this, I lost friends because of my behavior while drinking never accepting that alcohol was affecting me. I always had an excuse and would blame others saying oh well you made me mad and you knew I was drunk. I can say that I have cut back on my drinking a lot and I mean a lot but when I still drank there were days where I couldn't stay at just one drink. Never! It was always one then two then three then drunk and drinking whatever I saw in my way. Like I said I can go on and on but really you see my point. I was becoming a foolish drunk at the family parties, friends bday gatherings, and not having memory of some holiday events with my kids.
Today I have decided to quit drinking for these reasons and many more. I have decided to make a blog so I can get support to help me get through my journey. It was hard for me to see my life sober and I know it will be hard but with friends and family support, the love my of Lord, and me....I know that I will be able to do this. So there you have it....DAY ONE of my sober journey. I hope you will follow me and give me words of encouragement and hope that maybe there are others that need help and together we can do this.
Lets make this a positive and SOBER journey. I am afraid of the path but I know that I will succeed! I am not going to let alcohol be my buddy and worse enemy again!
I did it again...I woke up not remembering half of my evening. How many times have I done this before I ask myself? Oh one too many and yet I continue to "binge" drink, yes I said binge drinking. You see for many years I used to tell myself that I didn't have a drinking problem, I used to say oh I didn't eat enough so I got really drunk. That seemed to be my excuse each time I would get super drunk and make a fool of myself and hurt others in the process. I can type away and tell you my drunk nights and stories but if I did, I would never get to the point as to why I decided to quit drinking. I will however share a few stories that were caused due to my drinking that really has affected my family.
One evening I went out to a friends house to have a few drinks, well it went from one to too many drinks. Knowing that I was going to drink I gave my friend my car keys, trying to be responsible. I thought I'd sleep it off so I slept for a few hours and thought I was ok, so I took my keys from my friend (she was drunk too) and drove home. The next morning my mother knocked on my door and asked what happened to my car. I flipped out and thought someone had broken into my car. Well that wasn't it....I crashed my car. It cost nearly $8,000.00 to have it fixed. Luckily my insurance took care of it. So you think I quit drinking? No!!! I should have right but I didn't. Then some time later I went out for a few and thought I was ok to drive which I was but we were heading out for more drinks. Guess what? I hit a car and luckily I wasn't drunk but I am sure that had the cops smelled me and had given me a breath test, I would have a DUI. Ok now you are probably saying she quit! Nope!!!! Kept on drinking and in the midst of all this, I lost friends because of my behavior while drinking never accepting that alcohol was affecting me. I always had an excuse and would blame others saying oh well you made me mad and you knew I was drunk. I can say that I have cut back on my drinking a lot and I mean a lot but when I still drank there were days where I couldn't stay at just one drink. Never! It was always one then two then three then drunk and drinking whatever I saw in my way. Like I said I can go on and on but really you see my point. I was becoming a foolish drunk at the family parties, friends bday gatherings, and not having memory of some holiday events with my kids.
Today I have decided to quit drinking for these reasons and many more. I have decided to make a blog so I can get support to help me get through my journey. It was hard for me to see my life sober and I know it will be hard but with friends and family support, the love my of Lord, and me....I know that I will be able to do this. So there you have it....DAY ONE of my sober journey. I hope you will follow me and give me words of encouragement and hope that maybe there are others that need help and together we can do this.
Lets make this a positive and SOBER journey. I am afraid of the path but I know that I will succeed! I am not going to let alcohol be my buddy and worse enemy again!
