My heart is so heavy.....
Today is a bad day for me, I feel like my heart is being pulled in so many different directions. My family is so scattered apart and I know that they all are having hard times and need me. O' my God what do I do? I am but one person. I know that you are in control of all things and I trust You to take care of the needs of my family, but why oh why do I try to cling to the problems as if I could fix anything. I am nothing without You and can do nothing apart from You. I pray and I know that I am suppose to pray and let it go, trusting in You to hear and answer my supplications. But like a fool I gather them back to myself and it is torturing my heart. I want to cry, but the tears are slow to come and it feels as if my heart is about to explode within me. My God, my Father heal my pain and bring back to me the peace that I once knew. Only You can re-establish in me Your peace that passes all understanding. I am at a crossroads and don't know which road to take. I am split between Cali., Va., and Fl. and I don't know which way to go. I repeat to myself Your words of "Be still and know that I am your God". "My peace I give to you and my peace I leave with you even unto the end of the age". I am afraid and yet I know You tell me to have no fear for You are with me always. I fear myself and the thoughts that provoke my heart to dispair. Father be with my children. Grant unto them Your everlasting mercy and lovingkindness. Protect them Father and let their hearts be filled with joy. I love You my God more than life it's-self. May I feel Your everlasting presence with me.
Today is a bad day for me, I feel like my heart is being pulled in so many different directions. My family is so scattered apart and I know that they all are having hard times and need me. O' my God what do I do? I am but one person. I know that you are in control of all things and I trust You to take care of the needs of my family, but why oh why do I try to cling to the problems as if I could fix anything. I am nothing without You and can do nothing apart from You. I pray and I know that I am suppose to pray and let it go, trusting in You to hear and answer my supplications. But like a fool I gather them back to myself and it is torturing my heart. I want to cry, but the tears are slow to come and it feels as if my heart is about to explode within me. My God, my Father heal my pain and bring back to me the peace that I once knew. Only You can re-establish in me Your peace that passes all understanding. I am at a crossroads and don't know which road to take. I am split between Cali., Va., and Fl. and I don't know which way to go. I repeat to myself Your words of "Be still and know that I am your God". "My peace I give to you and my peace I leave with you even unto the end of the age". I am afraid and yet I know You tell me to have no fear for You are with me always. I fear myself and the thoughts that provoke my heart to dispair. Father be with my children. Grant unto them Your everlasting mercy and lovingkindness. Protect them Father and let their hearts be filled with joy. I love You my God more than life it's-self. May I feel Your everlasting presence with me.
