I recently had a vision that I shared only with a special person in my life. Usually things shared between us...stay between us but I thought that maybe my vision would help bring healing to those who may need it. Do you, constant reader, need healing in your life?
Like most of you, I have a past. I'm not sure what your past has held, but mine is twisted full of pain and hurt. I've endured all kinds of abuse and suffering in my 24-years on this earth. The worst of my pain has come in the past two years (read my other blogs if you don't know what's been going on with me).
But my vision is a familiar image...it's not really MY vision, but something I remembered. I think it was a commercial for drug addicts...an entire forest charred and burned to the ground. Any sign of life has long since passed away. Everything was black and smokey.
I likened that image to my past. Brokenness followed me wherever I turned. I lost it all. I was a hollow shell of a man who didn't know where to go or where to turn. But as in life, seasons change. In comes a bright ray of light through the black remains and offers hope. Tomorrow will come and with it signs of new life. Somewhere in this life of nothingness grows a tiny green vine.
It's a gift. A treasure from God sent to you. One day, if this vine is taken care of and you let God's light keep shining through the coals, it will be the start of something new. Over time this tiny vine grows and matures. Other vines begin to pop out of the ground. Hope of a future. The promise of a new life.
Lately, God has been shining his ray of light into my life and helping me get back onto my feet. He gave me a treasure, planted into my life and told me to take care of it. Watch over it. I am thankful for this gift.
But here's the hard part. When did the healing begin? The healing began when I realized I wasn't going to bask in my pain any longer. See, so many people (like myself) get hurt in life and rather than take responsibility for their own actions, would rather live in this hurt than move out of it.
I burned a lot of bridges. My forest was charred not because someone else walked into my life and decided to burn me down. I was the one holding the flamethrower. While a lot of hurt happens that isn't my fault, I reacted wrongly. I chose to ignore God and blame everyone else and live in my hurt, expecting people to feel sorry for me. I then stood in a black forest that was my life and wondered why it was happening to me. Doesn't God love me? Why did He allow this to happen?
But it wasn't God's fault. It hit me like a ton of bricks. As soon as I realized that I was in control of my life and nobody else was to blame, a bright light began to filter through. If I want healing...if I want things to change, I had to stand up and make it happen! Nobody else could make it happen for me! And along the way, God will give you special blessings that will help start a new future for you. The green vine.
It's no coincidence that my vine is green
A special gift God planted into my life that I will love and cherish always. And as that vine continues to grow strong, other vines peek beneath the black surface. Job opportunities. New friends. Ministry. Your life will once again thrive with His blessings!
My friends, there is hope. There is a tomorrow. At any time God can shine His light into your world, but He can't work unless you let Him. He won't impose on your freewill.
But I made a vow. Never again will I sit back and feel sorry for myself. A new season is dawning in my life. I can't very well live in the present and look to the future if I'm constantly crying over my past. The past has already come and gone and it's now time to set my view to something new. A new love. A new hope for a better future. God's blessings and promise.
If this healing is what you want, then it's there for the taking. You can decide to stand up on your two feet and change the direction your life is headed. Nobody can do it for you. Yes, people can support you and cheer you on, but in the end, you are in control of your life.
Peace and blessings,
Saucy
Like most of you, I have a past. I'm not sure what your past has held, but mine is twisted full of pain and hurt. I've endured all kinds of abuse and suffering in my 24-years on this earth. The worst of my pain has come in the past two years (read my other blogs if you don't know what's been going on with me).
But my vision is a familiar image...it's not really MY vision, but something I remembered. I think it was a commercial for drug addicts...an entire forest charred and burned to the ground. Any sign of life has long since passed away. Everything was black and smokey.
I likened that image to my past. Brokenness followed me wherever I turned. I lost it all. I was a hollow shell of a man who didn't know where to go or where to turn. But as in life, seasons change. In comes a bright ray of light through the black remains and offers hope. Tomorrow will come and with it signs of new life. Somewhere in this life of nothingness grows a tiny green vine.
It's a gift. A treasure from God sent to you. One day, if this vine is taken care of and you let God's light keep shining through the coals, it will be the start of something new. Over time this tiny vine grows and matures. Other vines begin to pop out of the ground. Hope of a future. The promise of a new life.
Lately, God has been shining his ray of light into my life and helping me get back onto my feet. He gave me a treasure, planted into my life and told me to take care of it. Watch over it. I am thankful for this gift.
But here's the hard part. When did the healing begin? The healing began when I realized I wasn't going to bask in my pain any longer. See, so many people (like myself) get hurt in life and rather than take responsibility for their own actions, would rather live in this hurt than move out of it.
I burned a lot of bridges. My forest was charred not because someone else walked into my life and decided to burn me down. I was the one holding the flamethrower. While a lot of hurt happens that isn't my fault, I reacted wrongly. I chose to ignore God and blame everyone else and live in my hurt, expecting people to feel sorry for me. I then stood in a black forest that was my life and wondered why it was happening to me. Doesn't God love me? Why did He allow this to happen?
But it wasn't God's fault. It hit me like a ton of bricks. As soon as I realized that I was in control of my life and nobody else was to blame, a bright light began to filter through. If I want healing...if I want things to change, I had to stand up and make it happen! Nobody else could make it happen for me! And along the way, God will give you special blessings that will help start a new future for you. The green vine.
It's no coincidence that my vine is green
A special gift God planted into my life that I will love and cherish always. And as that vine continues to grow strong, other vines peek beneath the black surface. Job opportunities. New friends. Ministry. Your life will once again thrive with His blessings! My friends, there is hope. There is a tomorrow. At any time God can shine His light into your world, but He can't work unless you let Him. He won't impose on your freewill.
But I made a vow. Never again will I sit back and feel sorry for myself. A new season is dawning in my life. I can't very well live in the present and look to the future if I'm constantly crying over my past. The past has already come and gone and it's now time to set my view to something new. A new love. A new hope for a better future. God's blessings and promise.
If this healing is what you want, then it's there for the taking. You can decide to stand up on your two feet and change the direction your life is headed. Nobody can do it for you. Yes, people can support you and cheer you on, but in the end, you are in control of your life.
Peace and blessings,
Saucy
