I'm not really sure how these things are supposed to go but here goes nothing.
The last few days I have been feeling God moving in my life. I had a dream a few nights ago that resonated deeply with me. I know it was God coming in my dreams to tell me what I needed to do to prepare for what's to come.
The strange thing is, the thing he told me to do, is the very thing I have been struggling with all my life. I'm addicted. I can't help it. I have never been successful at quitting. Its the hardest addiction to overcome. Food. Yes, I said it. I'm addicted to food. Well, I guess I'm more addicted to the act of eating than the food itself. The worst part of quitting has always been that I can't ever really QUIT eating. I have to eat to live, but as long as I have lived, food has controlled me.
Then the dream...
When I woke up I felt so profoundly loved. And I felt power over my hunger. I gained strength from this dream that has kept me eating like a normal human being for the last 4 days. I had forgotten what hunger felt like. Its a bit nauseating and I do get headaches sometimes, but I have this conviction that I've never felt before.
God loves me and he wants me to have all the good things I want in life, but I can't expect him to move if I refuse to. I need to prepare my body and my life for the wonderful things He has promised me. And one day, I will marry my amazing boyfriend and we will have a child. God always keeps his end of the bargain.
I intend to diligently do my part. My boyfriend doesn't believe it was the real thing, but he's been supportive enough to not say so. I am so excited that I have a plan. I feel like I've been stagnating for years. And I've felt a lot that my time for a family was running out and probably not in the cards for me. I am beyond blessed that He came to me and promised me everything I've ever wanted.
I can't wait to see what He has planned for me next. <3
The last few days I have been feeling God moving in my life. I had a dream a few nights ago that resonated deeply with me. I know it was God coming in my dreams to tell me what I needed to do to prepare for what's to come.
The strange thing is, the thing he told me to do, is the very thing I have been struggling with all my life. I'm addicted. I can't help it. I have never been successful at quitting. Its the hardest addiction to overcome. Food. Yes, I said it. I'm addicted to food. Well, I guess I'm more addicted to the act of eating than the food itself. The worst part of quitting has always been that I can't ever really QUIT eating. I have to eat to live, but as long as I have lived, food has controlled me.
Then the dream...
When I woke up I felt so profoundly loved. And I felt power over my hunger. I gained strength from this dream that has kept me eating like a normal human being for the last 4 days. I had forgotten what hunger felt like. Its a bit nauseating and I do get headaches sometimes, but I have this conviction that I've never felt before.
God loves me and he wants me to have all the good things I want in life, but I can't expect him to move if I refuse to. I need to prepare my body and my life for the wonderful things He has promised me. And one day, I will marry my amazing boyfriend and we will have a child. God always keeps his end of the bargain.
I intend to diligently do my part. My boyfriend doesn't believe it was the real thing, but he's been supportive enough to not say so. I am so excited that I have a plan. I feel like I've been stagnating for years. And I've felt a lot that my time for a family was running out and probably not in the cards for me. I am beyond blessed that He came to me and promised me everything I've ever wanted.
I can't wait to see what He has planned for me next. <3
