Well, this is my fist blog ever so I'm not exactly sure what to write so I guess I will just write whatever comes to mind.
I joined CF yesterday. It's the first forum I have ever joined. So far I am really enjoying the Christian fellowship and praying for others and having others pray for me as well. I believe we should all pray for each other every day.We should pray for believers, non believers, those who are sick, lost loved ones, those who have wondered off the straight and narrow path, the men and women of our Armed Forces, our country, other countries, this list could go on and on... Not a day goes by that we should not be praying about someone or something. I am a very strong believer in prayer. Although I know I have said I have had my doubt if God hears me sometimes, I really know that He does, and He always answers our prayers, just not always the way we want them answered or as fast as we want them answered. Sometimes the answer is yes, not now, later, I have something better in mind or just plain no. And sometimes as hard as it may be to accept one of his answers, we must believe and know that God knows best, even if we think we know best, He knows better.
I love to read my Bible. I have several different versions that I read from. Sometimes I can just read and read and read. I especially like it when I am reading and God puts wonderful thoughts into my head about what I have just read. I was keeping notes at one time about what I was reading and the thoughts I received from God but I've misplaced them somewhere so I need to start a new journal on that.
I have suffered from Bipolar Disorder most of my life and because I don't have insurance it is almost impossible for me to find a doctor and medications that I can afford and because of having to wait so long my Bipolar has gotten worse without proper treatment and has turned into Rapid Cycling Bipolar. I am no longer able to hold down an job because of this. I am no longer dependable because I never know from day to day how I will feel. My sleep pattern is always messed up no matter how hard I try to get it on a schedule. I have hit rock bottom with disorder when in a severely depressive episode and have attempted suicide. Thank God I survived it! I was also cutting myself, which I no longer do. I have done tons and tons of research on Bipolar disorder and have tried and am still trying many self help techniques. Sometimes they work and sometimes don't but you never know until you try. I try to avoid people and places that trigger episodes and that helps but for the episodes that are caused by no triggers, I'm still working on that. I try to pay attention every day to how I am feeling and a lot of times I can notice when a manic or depressive phase is on its way and I can somewhat try to prepare for it and try to keep it from getting really bad. If it were not for my relationship with God, I believe my Bipolar Disorder would be even worse than it is now and God has given me an amazing husband. I don't know what I would do without him, I don't even want to think about that. He has been there with me through thick and thin. Then there is my amazing mother who has been there for me my entire life and continues to be there for me. I know dealing with a person with a mental illness is not easy but I thank God for my husband and my mother. Funny how I just now realize God IS helping me with this, just not the way I thought He should or would. God always knows best! (Now I'm crying because I just realized this! I thought He wasn't helping me yet and He has been helping me all along!) Thank you God!!!!
I joined CF yesterday. It's the first forum I have ever joined. So far I am really enjoying the Christian fellowship and praying for others and having others pray for me as well. I believe we should all pray for each other every day.We should pray for believers, non believers, those who are sick, lost loved ones, those who have wondered off the straight and narrow path, the men and women of our Armed Forces, our country, other countries, this list could go on and on... Not a day goes by that we should not be praying about someone or something. I am a very strong believer in prayer. Although I know I have said I have had my doubt if God hears me sometimes, I really know that He does, and He always answers our prayers, just not always the way we want them answered or as fast as we want them answered. Sometimes the answer is yes, not now, later, I have something better in mind or just plain no. And sometimes as hard as it may be to accept one of his answers, we must believe and know that God knows best, even if we think we know best, He knows better.
I love to read my Bible. I have several different versions that I read from. Sometimes I can just read and read and read. I especially like it when I am reading and God puts wonderful thoughts into my head about what I have just read. I was keeping notes at one time about what I was reading and the thoughts I received from God but I've misplaced them somewhere so I need to start a new journal on that.
I have suffered from Bipolar Disorder most of my life and because I don't have insurance it is almost impossible for me to find a doctor and medications that I can afford and because of having to wait so long my Bipolar has gotten worse without proper treatment and has turned into Rapid Cycling Bipolar. I am no longer able to hold down an job because of this. I am no longer dependable because I never know from day to day how I will feel. My sleep pattern is always messed up no matter how hard I try to get it on a schedule. I have hit rock bottom with disorder when in a severely depressive episode and have attempted suicide. Thank God I survived it! I was also cutting myself, which I no longer do. I have done tons and tons of research on Bipolar disorder and have tried and am still trying many self help techniques. Sometimes they work and sometimes don't but you never know until you try. I try to avoid people and places that trigger episodes and that helps but for the episodes that are caused by no triggers, I'm still working on that. I try to pay attention every day to how I am feeling and a lot of times I can notice when a manic or depressive phase is on its way and I can somewhat try to prepare for it and try to keep it from getting really bad. If it were not for my relationship with God, I believe my Bipolar Disorder would be even worse than it is now and God has given me an amazing husband. I don't know what I would do without him, I don't even want to think about that. He has been there with me through thick and thin. Then there is my amazing mother who has been there for me my entire life and continues to be there for me. I know dealing with a person with a mental illness is not easy but I thank God for my husband and my mother. Funny how I just now realize God IS helping me with this, just not the way I thought He should or would. God always knows best! (Now I'm crying because I just realized this! I thought He wasn't helping me yet and He has been helping me all along!) Thank you God!!!!
