Hello everyone.
I have been having an issue with my faith for many years now.
I'm a 20 year old woman, and I have had my fair share of doubts when it comes to religion. I was raised a Lutheran, baptised, went to church every Sunday, got confirmed - the whole bit. Once I was around 12 years old or so, I started questioning my religious beliefs and shortly after, deemed myself an Atheist.
Around the age of 16, I started believing in a higher power, but never quite knew what it was. I just had a feeling there was something bigger.
Now I'm 20 and I really, really want to go back to the church. I miss the sense of community and wholesomeness that it brought years before. I want something to believe in again.
The only problem is, I don't believe. I want to so bad. I don't believe in Jesus, I don't believe in God; but I do believe there is a higher power, like I stated above. I don't believe in a Heaven or Hell.
I want to believe in God and Jesus again. The easiest way for me to explain it is this:
remember when you were a child, and you started realizing Santa Claus wasn't real? Maybe you noticed the penmanship Santa Claus had was peculiarly similar to your Mother's, or the wrapping paper on your presents from Santa was the exact same as the rest of your gifts?
You so desperately wanted to believe he exists, but deep down you knew he didn't.
I feel that way now, only about God and Jesus.
How do I believe again?
I have been having an issue with my faith for many years now.
I'm a 20 year old woman, and I have had my fair share of doubts when it comes to religion. I was raised a Lutheran, baptised, went to church every Sunday, got confirmed - the whole bit. Once I was around 12 years old or so, I started questioning my religious beliefs and shortly after, deemed myself an Atheist.
Around the age of 16, I started believing in a higher power, but never quite knew what it was. I just had a feeling there was something bigger.
Now I'm 20 and I really, really want to go back to the church. I miss the sense of community and wholesomeness that it brought years before. I want something to believe in again.
The only problem is, I don't believe. I want to so bad. I don't believe in Jesus, I don't believe in God; but I do believe there is a higher power, like I stated above. I don't believe in a Heaven or Hell.
I want to believe in God and Jesus again. The easiest way for me to explain it is this:
remember when you were a child, and you started realizing Santa Claus wasn't real? Maybe you noticed the penmanship Santa Claus had was peculiarly similar to your Mother's, or the wrapping paper on your presents from Santa was the exact same as the rest of your gifts?
You so desperately wanted to believe he exists, but deep down you knew he didn't.
I feel that way now, only about God and Jesus.
How do I believe again?
