So this is My first Blog thing on Christian Forums. I haven't done anything like this before but I just need to get things off my chest and talk about it.
Here it goes. I grew up in a Christian family and have gone to church all my life. Ever since like 8th grade I've wanted to give my life to Christ and fully love him. I do currently consider myself saved. I accepted Jesus as my Savior 10/10/2001 and have struggled with my christianity ever since. I went to Grove City Christian since 7th grade and it helped and complicated things. I graduated this year and have had a lot of decisions.
I started dating someone I've known since 8th grade. I moved in with her and her mom and grandpa after 2 weeks. I've lived here ever since. My parents don't know I have a tattoo that I got right before graduation and they don't know I'm living with my gf. They think I live with my friend Chris.
This week I started smoking Mary-J and I don't like how that is going. And I forgot to mention that I lost my virginity to my current gf. (it wasn't her first)
This is what I want, what I've been thinking about. I want to start over. My name is James Michael Spegal. But everyone knows me by Michael b/c of my mother (crazy story). I want to move out of this house and break it off with my g/f. I want to move into an apartment of my own and break off ties with all the people I know and used to know. Which I only hang out with a few friends. I want to tell my parents about living with Lea for these few months and tell them my plan. I want to get into a church that I can call mine. Somewhere that I can be free and worship Jesus how he deserves to be worshipped. And after several months of dedicating my life to Jesus I want to reach out to those friends of mine that I know have there heart in the right place.
I want to be able to live my life the way I have always wanted to. But I've always been afraid of what others would think. I've always had a persona that I've had to maintain and I am done being fake.
Please leave me your thoughts and help me with this decision. I don't know what to do. If you want to here what I believe (my doctrine) - ask.
Thank You so much,
Here it goes. I grew up in a Christian family and have gone to church all my life. Ever since like 8th grade I've wanted to give my life to Christ and fully love him. I do currently consider myself saved. I accepted Jesus as my Savior 10/10/2001 and have struggled with my christianity ever since. I went to Grove City Christian since 7th grade and it helped and complicated things. I graduated this year and have had a lot of decisions.
I started dating someone I've known since 8th grade. I moved in with her and her mom and grandpa after 2 weeks. I've lived here ever since. My parents don't know I have a tattoo that I got right before graduation and they don't know I'm living with my gf. They think I live with my friend Chris.
This week I started smoking Mary-J and I don't like how that is going. And I forgot to mention that I lost my virginity to my current gf. (it wasn't her first)
This is what I want, what I've been thinking about. I want to start over. My name is James Michael Spegal. But everyone knows me by Michael b/c of my mother (crazy story). I want to move out of this house and break it off with my g/f. I want to move into an apartment of my own and break off ties with all the people I know and used to know. Which I only hang out with a few friends. I want to tell my parents about living with Lea for these few months and tell them my plan. I want to get into a church that I can call mine. Somewhere that I can be free and worship Jesus how he deserves to be worshipped. And after several months of dedicating my life to Jesus I want to reach out to those friends of mine that I know have there heart in the right place.
I want to be able to live my life the way I have always wanted to. But I've always been afraid of what others would think. I've always had a persona that I've had to maintain and I am done being fake.
Please leave me your thoughts and help me with this decision. I don't know what to do. If you want to here what I believe (my doctrine) - ask.
Thank You so much,
