so apparently, i gots asthma. or pnemonia [.000000000001] chance that i got that tho or a respiratory virus or asthma and a respiratory virus or both. but either way, i gots asthma. and its gayer than aids. i had a horrible asthma attack after school. my mom thinks its just stress but i just wana tell her to shut up cuz its not from stress but she wont get it. i think she thinks i over exxagerate it but actually i make it better than what it is sometimes or she'lll be like 'OHSMYGOODNESS!!!' i just wish she'd be calm when i need her calm the most. i wish she had the slightest idea of what i'm going through but she doesnt. i try to explain it to her but she can't understand it. she's always right even if she is wrong. OH. she's also trying her weird vitamiin crap out on me. well she tried to and i was like 'there is no way ima put that crap into my body' and she was like 'fine. you can pay ur own doctor bill then' and iw as like 'kay.' i dont get why she believes in them so much. its prolly flavored water and its all in ur thinking and it prolly doesnt even work. everything and litterally mean EVERYTHING i say to her..she takes the wrong way. tonight we went to this thing in town together and a bunch of drunk ladies were walking around and i'm like 'i just wana go home mom' and she was like 'fine. we'll go home then. blah blah blah. you never wana do stuff with me' and i was like 'no being around drunk ladies just isnt my kind of fun' and she's all grrr at me. and she's still guna be convinced that its from stress but i promise its not. nobody that i know, has any idea what i'm going through or what its like. i'm litterally scared cuz i have no idea whats wrong with me. i lay down each night scared to fall asleep. my medicine doesnt help. my doctors aren't helpful at all. heck, the lady that i first saw didnt even tell me how many times a day i could use my inhaler. my aunt had to tell me. she had to explain everything to me cuz that lady told me nothing pretty much. in like 30 minutes, i can take my albuterol again but thats not guna help me at all. i just wish one person could relate to me. i just wish for a little bit that my mom would understand. i wish she wouldnt freak out when i need her the most and overract. my brother was home tonight and my mom was being all like how she is and my brother was like 'wow. i'm so glad that i dont live here anymore' and i'm like 'i dont blame you'
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