I am done with it. I am tired of trying to make my life over. I have done it many times. It is one of the things that keeps me packing my bags and moving overseas. In every move I see a better me. I know that if I could just do it right this one time then I would be safe and happy.
But this time I have stopped. I can't do it anymore. I have been here so many times. I got offered another job in a different country. I would get to make myself over again. This time I will be a missionary working with home schooling students. I decided not to go. Don't get me wrong - I would love to be able to do that. But the trap that I fall into so many times is that I make myself over to be everything that everyone else says I should be but there is only One I should be listening to. When the time comes I will know the calling is from Him.
So I am tired of making myself over. I am tired of thinking that I can make myself better than the One who created me. I am tired of thinking that others can make me into something better than the One who created me. Don't get me wrong - some of these are people are loving Christians. They seek Gods will for my life but I still need to make sure it is God's will above all.
Now I pray that one day soon I will be able to finally stay in one place and know that I am exactly the person God made me to be.
Blessings
But this time I have stopped. I can't do it anymore. I have been here so many times. I got offered another job in a different country. I would get to make myself over again. This time I will be a missionary working with home schooling students. I decided not to go. Don't get me wrong - I would love to be able to do that. But the trap that I fall into so many times is that I make myself over to be everything that everyone else says I should be but there is only One I should be listening to. When the time comes I will know the calling is from Him.
So I am tired of making myself over. I am tired of thinking that I can make myself better than the One who created me. I am tired of thinking that others can make me into something better than the One who created me. Don't get me wrong - some of these are people are loving Christians. They seek Gods will for my life but I still need to make sure it is God's will above all.
Now I pray that one day soon I will be able to finally stay in one place and know that I am exactly the person God made me to be.
Blessings
