Lost soul Seeking help

My name is Jesse Gonzales. I am a person that has been lost for a long time. lost from all light and from god and Jesus. From the ages of 6 to 9 i went to church every sunday and I never enjoyed it. i guess i was never fully brought aware of the teachings. i always thought of waking up early every sunday to be a chore. So my mother told me when i was about to reach ten that I was going to be given the choice to go or not because i was old enough to choose. I chose not to. I got older and eventually found my way into a small group of friends, one of which started talking about the Wicca religion and i found it interesting. so for the next few years after i met "Dar" (nickname he chose for himself) he started talking about how bad the world was and how much we could do to fix it. he talked about dark magics... evil things... and i became intriqued... for some time I did a lot of research on evil religions. even satanism... and i became a satanist... I found that the more fear I exerienced, the more i felt that i wanted to know more and learn everything i could. eventually... i became too affraid and i chose to no longer be of that group of people. after the things i did and the way they talked... and the mind set i had... it was like one day i just lost all sight of any road for me to follow. since that day i have always asked myself... would god accept me back? will god accept me back and forgive me for my sins and most importantly... for casting him out of my life for so long? for the past week ive been watching the church channel and reading the bible... and im even considering going to church this sunday... but i have the fear that god will turn me away... or strike me down. ive come to tears when talking to god in the most recent days... tears of sorrow and regret. im hoping to make some friends here... people i can talk to. people that will pray for me. it will help me a lot on my path back to god... thank you for reading this.