From age 14-23 I was a drug addict, I did lots of bad stuff and hurt lots of people... after my parents divorced at age 12 I completely rebelled against anything good and basically lost control. I was stealing from stores and from my family like it was nothing. I often weep over things I did in my past although I know God forgives me. The reason I am sharing that is because my conscience really died at a young age while most other kids I grew up around kept a degree of ''purity'' because they didn't get into drugs, but instead found ways of finding happiness and joy in life through much healthier means like school, work, friends, sports, hobbies, etc. I can't believe that I chose a path of drug addiction and just how ugly, demonic, and horrible doing drugs is... they create this ''artificial'' happiness and joy, a ''fantasy world'' and leave addicted people in chains so heavy that many overdose and die. The greek word for sorcery is ''pharmakia'', which is where we get the word ''pharmacy,'' or drugs, from. So drugs=sorcery. By smoking pot and popping pills all those years, I was literally playing sorcery on myself.
I know all sin is ugly and has an effect on our conscience but when I think about how peaceful and beautiful life would of been if I had just done the right thing, it makes me want to follow God even more. How beautiful of a thing it is to do the right thing in Gods love and keep a clean conscience... it's so simple yet so hard. We know that God's love is the only way but yet we still choose darkness. Oh how I value having a clean conscience now. How I long to be a new man but how easy it is to walk in darkness. God's love is so simple yet so difficult sometimes. I can't believe how the devil got in there when my parents divorced and got me addicted to drugs, got me at my weakest point. This song is an EXACT representation of what addicts go through, and what I went through for a long time-
Every 4 minutes someone dies from a heroin overdose in the USA... and 85 percent of all illicit drugs used in the WORLD are used in the United States, while the USA only makes up a little over 4 percent of the global human population... that's how bad of a problem drug use is in this country. Keep addicts in your prayers and pray against the flood of drugs into this country, it is a MAJOR problem and people are dying from drugs daily
I know all sin is ugly and has an effect on our conscience but when I think about how peaceful and beautiful life would of been if I had just done the right thing, it makes me want to follow God even more. How beautiful of a thing it is to do the right thing in Gods love and keep a clean conscience... it's so simple yet so hard. We know that God's love is the only way but yet we still choose darkness. Oh how I value having a clean conscience now. How I long to be a new man but how easy it is to walk in darkness. God's love is so simple yet so difficult sometimes. I can't believe how the devil got in there when my parents divorced and got me addicted to drugs, got me at my weakest point. This song is an EXACT representation of what addicts go through, and what I went through for a long time-
Every 4 minutes someone dies from a heroin overdose in the USA... and 85 percent of all illicit drugs used in the WORLD are used in the United States, while the USA only makes up a little over 4 percent of the global human population... that's how bad of a problem drug use is in this country. Keep addicts in your prayers and pray against the flood of drugs into this country, it is a MAJOR problem and people are dying from drugs daily
