Looking for help:(

Thanks for using your time to view this and help me. Right now i have no idea what to do anymore. I've been reading my bible everynight, praying, and trying to stop sinning but i don't feel any change. I don't feel like the Lord himself is actually inside me and helping me. When i was praying a few nights before i felt so lonely like i wasn't even praying to God. I felt likehe wasn't even there and i felt it in my heart but my mind said other wise.After that i broke down into tears thinking God left me. My stomach started hurting and my vision got blury and i felt like giving up and passing out. The thing is i've been dealing with a very big temptation. Homosexuality. I know its a sin and i really want to aviod it. Imreading bible verses and im praying to God but nothing is changing. Please i wanna have a full relationship with Christ and i wanna forget about all temptation and sin. Why is it so hard?