So, Im looking at my past with the understanding that everything must go!
There was no foundation of my past! nothing. It was all a lie! It was based on the most gruesome evil! and the players in this evil were lovers of the one below! I think!
I remember people, places and things! and they all have to go! nothing was based on reality or the truth... It was all a lie, including childhood friends, as no stability existed to create this illusion of a friendly street in a friendly town. It was all an elusion, all of it! and it still is.. its all a lie and a joke..
The players involved are evil!
If and when I can let go of these things, I can live more in the present and have relationships and watch with Gods help, my dreams come true..
Not yet, I have much work to do!
I need to keep writing! and writing, not here, but everywhere, seems the net is the only place I can be myself and accepted.
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Just left a meeting. I have to be great-full, I am waking up,. and remembering things..
I remember when I was 15, that is the last time I was awake; technically! possibly again in college, for a short time, maybe, not really!
I see that I was all alone! under the view of a sociopath and nothing more. This person got off on the idea of me being destroyed. I did not know!
I was alone and in a strange city! This person was trying to destroy me any way possible. She was a man hater, and considered me inferior. I ended up not being this roll. I was hated all the more because I was not inferior.
Sick is what it was!
I am waking up. I have God this time! and Im not sure what else! I need to be protected. I am alone again as usual.
I must trust God and let go of all other people, places, and things.
There was no foundation of my past! nothing. It was all a lie! It was based on the most gruesome evil! and the players in this evil were lovers of the one below! I think!
I remember people, places and things! and they all have to go! nothing was based on reality or the truth... It was all a lie, including childhood friends, as no stability existed to create this illusion of a friendly street in a friendly town. It was all an elusion, all of it! and it still is.. its all a lie and a joke..
The players involved are evil!
If and when I can let go of these things, I can live more in the present and have relationships and watch with Gods help, my dreams come true..
Not yet, I have much work to do!
I need to keep writing! and writing, not here, but everywhere, seems the net is the only place I can be myself and accepted.
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Just left a meeting. I have to be great-full, I am waking up,. and remembering things..
I remember when I was 15, that is the last time I was awake; technically! possibly again in college, for a short time, maybe, not really!
I see that I was all alone! under the view of a sociopath and nothing more. This person got off on the idea of me being destroyed. I did not know!
I was alone and in a strange city! This person was trying to destroy me any way possible. She was a man hater, and considered me inferior. I ended up not being this roll. I was hated all the more because I was not inferior.
Sick is what it was!
I am waking up. I have God this time! and Im not sure what else! I need to be protected. I am alone again as usual.
I must trust God and let go of all other people, places, and things.
