Living with mental condition

I have mental illness. At this point most would never see it...

I am truly lucky to be alive..
God has sustained me for a newer chapter of my life..

I know its popular for Christians these days to shun mental illness... How stupid... !!!!!

My mind was ruptured along time ago... It never came back..

I live with it... I am better then I use to be...

My life was about people that hated me, that despised me, used me, wanted to kill me...

In my opinion; they were nothing but middle class murderers...

Many claimed to be Christians... What a funny sick joke that is... Listening to hundreds of Christian tapes around the family table while they shun me , spit on me, and send me to the noose that I hang myself...

Nice people.... Nice world... What a joke...

If you don't have the money to live in the neighborhood, you are not a Christian...

Im trying to get over my involvement with the above... Its very hard...

I worship God, I do not worship Christian money or Neighborhoods...

Its not OK to kill the poor so I can be a good Christian that lives as they wish...! Bling..!!

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I have not worked a regular job in 13 years.. I doubt I ever will... And God does not want me to... God wants me to be safe and worship him...

I take allot of flack for this by the Christian conservative middle class...

They never ask why a person is the way they are... They don't have to.. They have to much money... They don't need to..

Im not lazy, Im to freakout for that... my mind can barley stay present from the Dissociative Disorder and the PTSD>..

When you talk to me you do it with respect or you don't come around...

Im on my knees to God all day long....