life.

so pretty sure today has been interesting. i didn't do much. i just sat around home and chilled. i wanted to go fishing tonight but my uncle never answered his phone which is leptarded but i think he had a lot of surgeries to do today and then he went out and played pool cuz he's gangsta like that. haha. my uncle is like 63ish and he's pretty amazing. i love being with him and hearing stories from when he was in the navy or just random stories from his past. he's prolly my favorite uncle and i'm prolly his favorite neice. i was super shy and scared around him when i was little and i was scared to tell him that i loved him. haha. he still makes fun of me for that to this day. i remember when i was younger....every year for thanksgiving, like the night before our little family thing-- i spent the night at my grandma's house and me and him stayed up late and baked pumpkin pies together. =] or me sitting on his lap in the boat when i was five and he taught me how to fish. sometimes, i wish i could go back and be that little girl. but i can never go back. i have one year left before i graduate and to be honest i'm kinda scared. i have no idea what i'm going to do. i know what i want to do and stuff but idk...i dont know if i'm ready to take a big step into the world of chaos and leave what i know thats familiar.........