People are letting me down!, they are using me!, and getting away with it. It has served God to serve me for awhile. However, things are changing. If one does not respect me or like me, I do not want them near me. I am not interested in there stupid way of life. I am not around people to be led by them or think like them nor am I interested in being controlled by them. My interest in people is a place to rest my head.
I need people that I can trust, This means people I can be myself around. So fare, I have found, no one. Im not surprised. If I am to live out the remainder of my life, I need to purge myself of the wrong people and find decent people to associate with.
People ar sly, not sly enough. Im around my enemy that sits close to the gate; these are people that want to play me, or play games with me.
People with contempt seem to hide it with smiles and other none sense. Contempt seems to control, or have the elusion of control.
I used to look at people at being stupid, they are not stupid, they are Evil and corrupt; nothing more. . Because no one can come up with a reason to hate me, they find false reasons. I make people look bad because they are bad..... I am transparent like water or rain.
Courage is very hard, and humiliation is a hard thing to take. Being used is harder.
I was hated by my family for being a decent person, a gentle caring kind sensitive person... I almost died from my association with these animals..
The local people treated me no different then my family did; I did nothing to these people, yet, I am despised the same way..
I am treated with contempt by ignorant cheaters acting the part of the kind priest...
Im attempting sincerity, those judging me or looking down at me from on high, have no sincerity. Its important that I play the role of the dumb outsider that they look good at the table.
Im slowly learning to get stronger and see the truth... The truth sets me free...
I need people that I can trust, This means people I can be myself around. So fare, I have found, no one. Im not surprised. If I am to live out the remainder of my life, I need to purge myself of the wrong people and find decent people to associate with.
People ar sly, not sly enough. Im around my enemy that sits close to the gate; these are people that want to play me, or play games with me.
People with contempt seem to hide it with smiles and other none sense. Contempt seems to control, or have the elusion of control.
I used to look at people at being stupid, they are not stupid, they are Evil and corrupt; nothing more. . Because no one can come up with a reason to hate me, they find false reasons. I make people look bad because they are bad..... I am transparent like water or rain.
Courage is very hard, and humiliation is a hard thing to take. Being used is harder.
I was hated by my family for being a decent person, a gentle caring kind sensitive person... I almost died from my association with these animals..
The local people treated me no different then my family did; I did nothing to these people, yet, I am despised the same way..
I am treated with contempt by ignorant cheaters acting the part of the kind priest...
Im attempting sincerity, those judging me or looking down at me from on high, have no sincerity. Its important that I play the role of the dumb outsider that they look good at the table.
Im slowly learning to get stronger and see the truth... The truth sets me free...
