I read my journal from 4 years ago today.
I was suffering greatly. I know I have also suffered this year. But I have given so much to God. All of my Ashes, in exchange for beauty.
Unfortuantely, I run right back and scoop them up again. How can He give me beauty when im holding on to my Ashes fiercely?
Im so tired of doing that. I really want to rest now.
I want to leave them there.
I was suffering greatly. I know I have also suffered this year. But I have given so much to God. All of my Ashes, in exchange for beauty.
Unfortuantely, I run right back and scoop them up again. How can He give me beauty when im holding on to my Ashes fiercely?
Im so tired of doing that. I really want to rest now.
I want to leave them there.
