My father wanted nothing to do with me! Im sorry he didn't! Im not sure what he was thinking.
Im beginning to understand the meetings a bit more! They are unsafe places of un-regulations. One has to learn who to talk to, and speak wisely.
Im attempting to wake up, Im weak in these areas of self response, lots of PTSD history acting out! It will take time!
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IVe been around people that actually think Im so weak that they can get away with speaking for me ( in front of me ( in front of others)). Strange people!
ITs about dealing with others and not caving in! ITs about learning how to move in one direction or another without being attacked.
All of this interaction requires I prepare for the history of a fallen life; mine!
I will relive so much horror and loss. I lost my brothers, I lost a mother that never was, I lost my Father! He is dead now! I lost all relatives and the family history! I lost all things...
I never wanted to know anything about my mothers side of anything, I cared nothing for that! Sicko creepo's.
I lost my brothers, that really sucks and is horrible. My mother set that up! She was a sociopath and she destroyed all things and people involved. I barley made it out alive.
its good to talk about my brothers.. and that I miss them and they are no more!
I lost my best friend, he to died away from me in a sense, I never saw him again, and never will! He is a fading memory of betrayal.
I lost the school system I loved, the history and future of the area and the dreams and hopes of that innocence... I was my mothers goal to destroy my dreams and hopes and innocence.. Nice person!
I have a relationship with God that sustains me on a daily basis. I am not interested in the world, Im interested in turning to God first!
Im beginning to understand the meetings a bit more! They are unsafe places of un-regulations. One has to learn who to talk to, and speak wisely.
Im attempting to wake up, Im weak in these areas of self response, lots of PTSD history acting out! It will take time!
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IVe been around people that actually think Im so weak that they can get away with speaking for me ( in front of me ( in front of others)). Strange people!
ITs about dealing with others and not caving in! ITs about learning how to move in one direction or another without being attacked.
All of this interaction requires I prepare for the history of a fallen life; mine!
I will relive so much horror and loss. I lost my brothers, I lost a mother that never was, I lost my Father! He is dead now! I lost all relatives and the family history! I lost all things...
I never wanted to know anything about my mothers side of anything, I cared nothing for that! Sicko creepo's.
I lost my brothers, that really sucks and is horrible. My mother set that up! She was a sociopath and she destroyed all things and people involved. I barley made it out alive.
its good to talk about my brothers.. and that I miss them and they are no more!
I lost my best friend, he to died away from me in a sense, I never saw him again, and never will! He is a fading memory of betrayal.
I lost the school system I loved, the history and future of the area and the dreams and hopes of that innocence... I was my mothers goal to destroy my dreams and hopes and innocence.. Nice person!
I have a relationship with God that sustains me on a daily basis. I am not interested in the world, Im interested in turning to God first!
