JustAVent...

I assume I 'woke up on the wrong side of the bed' today. I've been in a bad mood all day and nothing seems to be able to shake it. Being at work surely isn't helping. I'm especially annoyed with the people at my place of employment. There's a nice mixture of slightly intellectually challenged and complete arrogance and conceitedness. Today both are pushing me nearly to an edge of telling people off and saying things that would likely get me fired. It's only a part-time job that doesn't pay worth a crap but unfortunately, I still need it. I'm beginning to wonder if it's really worth it though. I've sacrificed every Saturday since early fall 2008 for this place. I shudder to think of possible opportunities missed by being unable to say 'no' to extra hours, etc.... I'm just really sick of people in general. Men especially.....it seems like the male species has been especially rude, inconsiderate and downright mean lately. Why would I even be interested in dating when all I see from this species is idiotic behaviour? I work two jobs. I'm treated bad enough there. I don't need it outside of work too. I'm just rambling and I know it. I can't seem to focus my feelings and make sense of them. All I can do is type out my anger and frustrations. Sadly enough, I still feel the urge to run over somebody with my car. I'm just so full of anger and hatred lately. God is just a name. He doesn't feel real at all to me. He's a 'he' too. I think that's part of my barrier to Him...he's a Him. I guess I'm headed to hell and I only have males to blame. Go figure....