trying to be positive with life. I am feeling quiet good today. I want to get better with my health, eat right, exercise & feel better about myself. Let the past go, move onto the future. Try to put those who have hurt me out of my mind, just let go. Not to dwell on things, not to worry. I just want peace & to be happy to live life free. Free as a Bird! I want to surround myself with people who are happy & real. I don't want to be around negative people, people who think the worst of me, who only bring me down. I want to change & change for the better. I have been through a lot & still smile, still lol. I must get attacked a lot, because despite my bad days, I still have joy is that the goal of the enemy to wipe the joy from my life, has to try wipe that away from me the best he can, even if i am left on my own no1 around me? Why have these things happened in my life. I wish i could get answers, I wish i could find out how to make it better at times, turning to God at times does not help, I would like to know a little bit what is in store for me, is life going to get better, does god love me, is he dealing with those who hurt me, is goodness coming my way even though I am not the best person int he world. Am i doing the right thing, while living on this planet?
Despite some of the sorrow in my heart, I still have joy. Odd and strange feeling. My body is weak but the spirit is willing. maybe that is why i am still the way i am. Godly talk annoys me but don't want to fully close the door to it, turned agnostic. I am still drawn to the things of God a little bit, only so much i can tolerate of it. In some way I don't want to be on the path i like the old path I was on. Sometimes I wonder if 5 yrs ago was a better path to be on then the path i am now and have been on for a while? ne ways, lots of why's & no answers to them. if i got answers to the questions , would i be happy with them anyway? anyway i am rambling, something i do often. random ramblings.
Despite some of the sorrow in my heart, I still have joy. Odd and strange feeling. My body is weak but the spirit is willing. maybe that is why i am still the way i am. Godly talk annoys me but don't want to fully close the door to it, turned agnostic. I am still drawn to the things of God a little bit, only so much i can tolerate of it. In some way I don't want to be on the path i like the old path I was on. Sometimes I wonder if 5 yrs ago was a better path to be on then the path i am now and have been on for a while? ne ways, lots of why's & no answers to them. if i got answers to the questions , would i be happy with them anyway? anyway i am rambling, something i do often. random ramblings.
