So...the other day was kind of a tough one. I vented a little in my journal and here, in this blog. I had very little sleep last night wich caused me to wake up at 10! But lucky for me I didn't have much to do.
I'm okay now. I realize I'm just being a baby about things and I'm stressing over things that are possibly not true.
It's just... This is something I struggle with. I had a pretty tough chilhood and memories of those day always seem to flood my mind and make me feel like crap. I know this is Satan.
He has found something that he can use to make me weak, and to bring me down.
I'm trying my very hardest not to give in to his craftiness...because my God is greater! And with him I can have victory.
I'm okay now. I realize I'm just being a baby about things and I'm stressing over things that are possibly not true.
It's just... This is something I struggle with. I had a pretty tough chilhood and memories of those day always seem to flood my mind and make me feel like crap. I know this is Satan.
He has found something that he can use to make me weak, and to bring me down.
I'm trying my very hardest not to give in to his craftiness...because my God is greater! And with him I can have victory.
"Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.
Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings." -1 Peter 5:7-9
Be self-controlled and alert. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings." -1 Peter 5:7-9
I don't know if I'll ever be able to let go of what has happend in the past because it did hurt. It has scared me... and scars or very tough to get rid of.
I'm very tired of feeling this hurt over and over. I just want it to end. I need a way to feel good about myself and forget the past.
I don't want to go back into the rut I fell into a year ago.
Or maybe I could find a way to use that pain and turn it into something else it wont hurt so much.
All in all, I'm glad I have such a great God who will always be by my side even when physically, no one is with me.
I'm very tired of feeling this hurt over and over. I just want it to end. I need a way to feel good about myself and forget the past.
I don't want to go back into the rut I fell into a year ago.
Or maybe I could find a way to use that pain and turn it into something else it wont hurt so much.
All in all, I'm glad I have such a great God who will always be by my side even when physically, no one is with me.
