Well, today is a strange day. Many emotions passing through. Some sad and some happy thoughts too.
We put our last tuxedo cat down yesterday and that made me sad when I woke up this morning with no kitty to feed. But, I am sure this sadness will pass. Me and hubby have had 4 cats most of our marriage and now they are "all" gone.
Now, I still have...Praise God..all three of my kids, and three grandbabies...or I'd really be sad...so thank you Lord for what I do have, which I didn't deserve, but happy that You chose me to take care of them all...I love them without conditions, amen! Cuz YOU taught me that...unlike my mom and dad...who love was always conditional, or at least it seemed that way! My mom even used You for punishments..she'd say "I'll let God punish you and you'll see". Kinda sad and made me not love You for a very long time!
But, I am "MORE THAN HAPPY YOU FOUND ME" maybe in better shape..but none the less...I am adopted into Your kingdom and love you very very much! I don't blame YOU when things go wacky...cuz I know where we live now..nothing is perfect...EXCEPT FOR YOUR NEVERENDING LOVE, AMEN!
Well, I guess it is time to face talking to my earthly father, who btw...could I feel just once in my life that he cares at all about me..while he is still here, thank you Lord for all Your mercies, amen.
I am not worthy of Your love, but very glad that I have that in this nasty old world, amen. your daughter, hannah banana...who You made me the way that I am...and grooming me for more..Thank You for changing me day by day, amen! 
We put our last tuxedo cat down yesterday and that made me sad when I woke up this morning with no kitty to feed. But, I am sure this sadness will pass. Me and hubby have had 4 cats most of our marriage and now they are "all" gone.
Now, I still have...Praise God..all three of my kids, and three grandbabies...or I'd really be sad...so thank you Lord for what I do have, which I didn't deserve, but happy that You chose me to take care of them all...I love them without conditions, amen! Cuz YOU taught me that...unlike my mom and dad...who love was always conditional, or at least it seemed that way! My mom even used You for punishments..she'd say "I'll let God punish you and you'll see". Kinda sad and made me not love You for a very long time!
But, I am "MORE THAN HAPPY YOU FOUND ME" maybe in better shape..but none the less...I am adopted into Your kingdom and love you very very much! I don't blame YOU when things go wacky...cuz I know where we live now..nothing is perfect...EXCEPT FOR YOUR NEVERENDING LOVE, AMEN!
Well, I guess it is time to face talking to my earthly father, who btw...could I feel just once in my life that he cares at all about me..while he is still here, thank you Lord for all Your mercies, amen.
I am not worthy of Your love, but very glad that I have that in this nasty old world, amen. your daughter, hannah banana...who You made me the way that I am...and grooming me for more..Thank You for changing me day by day, amen! 
