Some days I wonder why God made me like this. Why did He create me with this anxiety?
Then I stop to ponder... that God created my "self", my "soul", my "spirit" or essence.. but anxiety is typically a brain mis-function, a bio-chemical issue, or comes about because of environmental factors (like abuse or neglect) in childhood/adulthood.
God didn't create my malformed brain in the snap of His fingers.. my body is this way because humans have evolved over hundreds of thousands of years, and some time during that evolutionary process, my great grandmother was born, and my grandmother, and my mother.. and biological / chemical / hormonal instability was passed down through our genes -- this wasn't the fault of God, but simply a coincidence of the world of science that I came about with such an error in my head.
And my up-bringing was somewhat abusive and was a result of free-will and not God.
So in reality, it makes no sense for me to shake my first at the sky and say "Why?" -- The answer is simply: It wasn't Him. It was just the natural order of things.
Things like Evolution and acknowledging the existence of Coincidence, actually help Christianity in a way, because no longer can people blame God for their deformities or set-backs. Things simply are the way they are, either by science, or by coincidence, or by Free Will... All of these things exist side by side with God, or under God.. God doesn't replace them nor do they replace Him. It's a symbiotic relationship of the greatest kind. All aspects of the relationship of forces in the world need to be acknowledge to have the bigger picture of "why".
Someone once said... Religion and Science are not at odds, they are simply different pieces to the puzzle: Religion helps us understand "why", and Science helps us understand "How"
I agree with that statement... I do know how my anxiety works on a fundamental level.
But I do find myself asking the Why a bit more often these days.
I think the better question, though, in this case.. is not "Why do I have the anxiety?" but "Why do I not rely more on God when I go through it?" -- It's a me-centered question, not a God-centered one. God didn't give me the anxiety, nor will He take it away. Life is as it is, and in order to survive.. I have to learn to cope. I've done as much coping as I can on my own, and then I turn to God, as I feel I should (children should learn to be as independent as they can be, but always ask for help when they fail).
I guess learning the correct questions to ask, is half the battle to finding life's answers.
Then I stop to ponder... that God created my "self", my "soul", my "spirit" or essence.. but anxiety is typically a brain mis-function, a bio-chemical issue, or comes about because of environmental factors (like abuse or neglect) in childhood/adulthood.
God didn't create my malformed brain in the snap of His fingers.. my body is this way because humans have evolved over hundreds of thousands of years, and some time during that evolutionary process, my great grandmother was born, and my grandmother, and my mother.. and biological / chemical / hormonal instability was passed down through our genes -- this wasn't the fault of God, but simply a coincidence of the world of science that I came about with such an error in my head.
And my up-bringing was somewhat abusive and was a result of free-will and not God.
So in reality, it makes no sense for me to shake my first at the sky and say "Why?" -- The answer is simply: It wasn't Him. It was just the natural order of things.
Things like Evolution and acknowledging the existence of Coincidence, actually help Christianity in a way, because no longer can people blame God for their deformities or set-backs. Things simply are the way they are, either by science, or by coincidence, or by Free Will... All of these things exist side by side with God, or under God.. God doesn't replace them nor do they replace Him. It's a symbiotic relationship of the greatest kind. All aspects of the relationship of forces in the world need to be acknowledge to have the bigger picture of "why".
Someone once said... Religion and Science are not at odds, they are simply different pieces to the puzzle: Religion helps us understand "why", and Science helps us understand "How"
I agree with that statement... I do know how my anxiety works on a fundamental level.
But I do find myself asking the Why a bit more often these days.
I think the better question, though, in this case.. is not "Why do I have the anxiety?" but "Why do I not rely more on God when I go through it?" -- It's a me-centered question, not a God-centered one. God didn't give me the anxiety, nor will He take it away. Life is as it is, and in order to survive.. I have to learn to cope. I've done as much coping as I can on my own, and then I turn to God, as I feel I should (children should learn to be as independent as they can be, but always ask for help when they fail).
I guess learning the correct questions to ask, is half the battle to finding life's answers.
