June 4, 2005

Silence has crept into my life. Where there was once something meaningful, turned to silence. Perhaps it is part of learning to listen to His will. The Lord gives and he takes away. I will trust His decision because it is just that. There are times I wish I didn't think or even feel, but that is just the old me talking, and it speaks strong these days. I am fighting, and know that I'll be fine. The only comfort lately against the world, that breaks me daily, is the time I spend in The Word, prayer and with friends. Not much else matters right now. I have given my issues up to Him and He knows the desires of my heart, I pray that something is revealed to me someday. Something true and from God. Pray for the coming days. My heart is so heavy, but it is a burden that He will relieve once the time is right. I continue to pray for you all, for you are all a part of my heart, and to not have you would be like not having a heart at all.