I think.
I am soo tired of being ALONE, Jesus. It's been just me and You here for SOOOOOOOO LONG NOW ! Why doesn't anyone ever see the You that I see? How come there is no one who dances like We do? How come I feel like I am always an alien who stifles the very best of me to be in fellowship with another? No one ever seems to 'get' You in my 3D world...., the ones who do are video icons.... 'stars' or leaders in the mediaMEGAMACHINE...You're isolating me. At least tomorrow I can work with B, she's awake in You.
Where are the 'real' ecclesia, Jesus? Why am I always left out here alone with You? Aren't I more useful in a growing fellowship with another seasoned believer? Am I really of any use at all in this position that You have me in? Sometimes, it seems I am..... and then, I wonder.... did it make any difference at all that We shared You?
I'm bored with all the dullness in my path.... it's always such a needy environment.... where are my fellow feeders...those who might feed me, in You, in reciprocity?
Whatever.... I'm cornered.... AGAIN !!!!
Change... conflict....transition.... breakthrough.
Where am I on the scale this time, Jesus? Feels so lonely and vaccuous here.
.....funny thing is, I have learned that I am somewhere in that progression above ! And, in THAT I know the joy of being in process, cornered by You... You are a very hard One to love well. Hardest and most gravity ridden love I have ever known.... also, the most of every other quality, too. I'm just flat out addicted to You, and I can't even run anymore. pppppththththth.....
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I am soo tired of being ALONE, Jesus. It's been just me and You here for SOOOOOOOO LONG NOW ! Why doesn't anyone ever see the You that I see? How come there is no one who dances like We do? How come I feel like I am always an alien who stifles the very best of me to be in fellowship with another? No one ever seems to 'get' You in my 3D world...., the ones who do are video icons.... 'stars' or leaders in the mediaMEGAMACHINE...You're isolating me. At least tomorrow I can work with B, she's awake in You.
Where are the 'real' ecclesia, Jesus? Why am I always left out here alone with You? Aren't I more useful in a growing fellowship with another seasoned believer? Am I really of any use at all in this position that You have me in? Sometimes, it seems I am..... and then, I wonder.... did it make any difference at all that We shared You?
I'm bored with all the dullness in my path.... it's always such a needy environment.... where are my fellow feeders...those who might feed me, in You, in reciprocity?
Whatever.... I'm cornered.... AGAIN !!!!
Change... conflict....transition.... breakthrough.
Where am I on the scale this time, Jesus? Feels so lonely and vaccuous here.
.....funny thing is, I have learned that I am somewhere in that progression above ! And, in THAT I know the joy of being in process, cornered by You... You are a very hard One to love well. Hardest and most gravity ridden love I have ever known.... also, the most of every other quality, too. I'm just flat out addicted to You, and I can't even run anymore. pppppththththth.....
" The Real Life" ~ 3 Doors Down ~
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~~---->>> Love; from above and within, Shachah <----~~
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[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Strong's: 7812 [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Original Word ~hxX: ~[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Transliterated Word ~ [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Shachah [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Phonetic Spelling ~ [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Helvetica]shaw-khaw' Definition: to bow down, prostrate oneself before superior in homage; before God in worship;...[/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]You're sons of Light, daughters of Day. We live under wide open skies and know where we stand. [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]So let's not sleepwalk through life ... Since we're creatures of Day, let's act like it. Walk out into the daylight sober, dressed up in faith, love, and the hope of salvation.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]1 THESSALONIANS 5:5...8 ~The Message Remix[/FONT]
~~---->>> Love; from above and within, Shachah <----~~
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[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Strong's: 7812 [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Original Word ~hxX: ~[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Transliterated Word ~ [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Shachah [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Phonetic Spelling ~ [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Helvetica]shaw-khaw' Definition: to bow down, prostrate oneself before superior in homage; before God in worship;...[/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]You're sons of Light, daughters of Day. We live under wide open skies and know where we stand. [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]So let's not sleepwalk through life ... Since we're creatures of Day, let's act like it. Walk out into the daylight sober, dressed up in faith, love, and the hope of salvation.[/FONT]
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