Joy in a few tough, yet good weeks, of battle...
Jesus, I gotta ask this, though I pretty much know the answer......WHY does there ALWAYS come a fall from Grace ? ! ?
The last two weeks have been so very alive and awake! I have been torquing on Your Spirit's Wind through me, in the very midst of the hard times of scheduling for all the demands of the broken and elderly members of our group. I can hear Your lead in prioritizing things and I have seen Your protection bolstering and the uplifting of my Spirit in SOOO MANY situations! The studytimes have been anointed, I HEAR and recall, like I do when I am lit by You.... I can feel Your favor all over my days! I am in the zone! with YOU!
AND THEN.... like an alarm clock of incredible dependability... it begins... the same elements in varying forms and order each time.... over and over, and round and round, I've been on this road around the same old mountain. It's become that I recognize the recurrence of these events, that inevitably unfold, as well as I know You coming, in my blood and in my bones. Like a hoard of drones, they come! The stealers of the anointings' power.... they come to take the joy and the peace... they come to take the love and the favor... they come to take the hearts and minds of those closest in my world at the time and make use of them to squash Your presence in my walk, heart, mind, Spirit and the Body.
Each time I get a wee more aware of the patterns, tactics and 'scent' of them. Each time I grow more acutely aware of Your care and concern for me and those You raise up to dispense it. That's a good thing. Thanks for that. But, I want to build my resolve to lean most effectively on You, Jesus. I want to grow strong enough to resist the thieves and drive THEM back under! I want that for You and for me ! and in this 'ground hog day' of a scenario, I want to honor and glorify You.
So, here's the thing. With all of my growing, though infantile, understanding of Your anointings of me and their purposes, I haven't yet built the link to that dispensation of the understanding in time to catch the falling and keep it from manifesting. It's SSSOOOOOO very close, yet always the vultures descend on the fruit with covetous, drone-like, certainty. Always the hunger in the crowd blocks out the Son, like fledgling birds sparring for a worm in a crowded nest!
Show me what I can't see, Jesus. What am I missing ?
Unfold Your heart to me, and I will make way to be Your better student, Jesus. There's always something I miss. 95% of the time, the problem is Hubbs, in the end of the scenario. He is the first to fall in the adversity. He falls HARD. Then, he becomes another burden for me. Please present Yourself toward him in a strong manner to show him the importance of the Body AND create in him a thirst for Your Word. This would make him an ally in the Spirit throughout and a force for creative resolution and/or change. Then he wouldn't be so quick to join the ranks of the burdens... Oh Jesus, create in him the thirst. Lift him to Your throne of mercy, grace.
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Jesus, I gotta ask this, though I pretty much know the answer......WHY does there ALWAYS come a fall from Grace ? ! ?
The last two weeks have been so very alive and awake! I have been torquing on Your Spirit's Wind through me, in the very midst of the hard times of scheduling for all the demands of the broken and elderly members of our group. I can hear Your lead in prioritizing things and I have seen Your protection bolstering and the uplifting of my Spirit in SOOO MANY situations! The studytimes have been anointed, I HEAR and recall, like I do when I am lit by You.... I can feel Your favor all over my days! I am in the zone! with YOU!
AND THEN.... like an alarm clock of incredible dependability... it begins... the same elements in varying forms and order each time.... over and over, and round and round, I've been on this road around the same old mountain. It's become that I recognize the recurrence of these events, that inevitably unfold, as well as I know You coming, in my blood and in my bones. Like a hoard of drones, they come! The stealers of the anointings' power.... they come to take the joy and the peace... they come to take the love and the favor... they come to take the hearts and minds of those closest in my world at the time and make use of them to squash Your presence in my walk, heart, mind, Spirit and the Body.
Each time I get a wee more aware of the patterns, tactics and 'scent' of them. Each time I grow more acutely aware of Your care and concern for me and those You raise up to dispense it. That's a good thing. Thanks for that. But, I want to build my resolve to lean most effectively on You, Jesus. I want to grow strong enough to resist the thieves and drive THEM back under! I want that for You and for me ! and in this 'ground hog day' of a scenario, I want to honor and glorify You.
So, here's the thing. With all of my growing, though infantile, understanding of Your anointings of me and their purposes, I haven't yet built the link to that dispensation of the understanding in time to catch the falling and keep it from manifesting. It's SSSOOOOOO very close, yet always the vultures descend on the fruit with covetous, drone-like, certainty. Always the hunger in the crowd blocks out the Son, like fledgling birds sparring for a worm in a crowded nest!
10In conclusion, be strong in the Lord [be empowered through your union with Him]; draw your strength from Him [that strength which His boundless might provides].
11Put on God's whole armor [the armor of a heavy-armed soldier which God supplies], that you may be able successfully to stand up against [all] the strategies and the deceits of the devil.
12For we are not wrestling with flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the despotisms, against the powers, against [the master spirits who are] the world rulers of this present darkness, against the spirit forces of wickedness in the heavenly (supernatural) sphere.
13Therefore put on God's complete armor, that you may be able to resist and stand your ground on the evil day [of danger], and, having done all [the crisis demands], to stand[firmly in your place].
Now I KNOW You dealt with this road! And, I know that You know the key to my elusive longevity of service. So, can You PLEASE throw me a receptivity to the lessons I have been missing here, Jesus? Cause I keep living long enough to repeat this lesson over and over and altering the results little if any ! 11Put on God's whole armor [the armor of a heavy-armed soldier which God supplies], that you may be able successfully to stand up against [all] the strategies and the deceits of the devil.
12For we are not wrestling with flesh and blood [contending only with physical opponents], but against the despotisms, against the powers, against [the master spirits who are] the world rulers of this present darkness, against the spirit forces of wickedness in the heavenly (supernatural) sphere.
13Therefore put on God's complete armor, that you may be able to resist and stand your ground on the evil day [of danger], and, having done all [the crisis demands], to stand[firmly in your place].
Show me what I can't see, Jesus. What am I missing ?
Unfold Your heart to me, and I will make way to be Your better student, Jesus. There's always something I miss. 95% of the time, the problem is Hubbs, in the end of the scenario. He is the first to fall in the adversity. He falls HARD. Then, he becomes another burden for me. Please present Yourself toward him in a strong manner to show him the importance of the Body AND create in him a thirst for Your Word. This would make him an ally in the Spirit throughout and a force for creative resolution and/or change. Then he wouldn't be so quick to join the ranks of the burdens... Oh Jesus, create in him the thirst. Lift him to Your throne of mercy, grace.
And SHOW ME where my fallings lurk, that I might move forward faster, more steadily, for your Glory. Amen.
more on this another time, Jesus... many questions. Eyes are closing, LONG week AMEN
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Bow'nDown
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[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Strong's: 7812 [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Original Word ~hxX: ~[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Transliterated Word ~ [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Shachah [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Phonetic Spelling ~ [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Helvetica]shaw-khaw' Definition: to bow down, prostrate oneself before superior in homage; before God in worship;...[/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]You're sons of Light, daughters of Day. We live under wide open skies and know where we stand. [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]So let's not sleepwalk through life ... Since we're creatures of Day, let's act like it. Walk out into the daylight sober, dressed up in faith, love, and the hope of salvation.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]1 THESSALONIANS 5:5...8 ~The Message Remix[/FONT]
~~---->>> Love; from above and within, Shachah <----~~
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[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Strong's: 7812 [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Original Word ~hxX: ~[FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Transliterated Word ~ [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Shachah [FONT=Arial, Helvetica]Phonetic Spelling ~ [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Helvetica]shaw-khaw' Definition: to bow down, prostrate oneself before superior in homage; before God in worship;...[/FONT][/FONT][/FONT]
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[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]You're sons of Light, daughters of Day. We live under wide open skies and know where we stand. [/FONT][FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]So let's not sleepwalk through life ... Since we're creatures of Day, let's act like it. Walk out into the daylight sober, dressed up in faith, love, and the hope of salvation.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial, Geneva, Helvetica]1 THESSALONIANS 5:5...8 ~The Message Remix[/FONT]
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