Jesus And Dolls

Today I was praying to Jesus while playing dolls. Jesus let me know that playing with dolls will help me heal. I began crying some while playing dolls, thinking about the ritual abuse. The ritual abuse lasted many months and was horrifying. Jesus comforted me as I cried and I laid down on my bed. I was thinking about Silver, my torturer. She was the main one who hurt me. I think she wanted to ruin my life and make me mentally ill. I have forgiven her and sometimes I pray for her. My dolls were needed to distract me today because I was feeling depressed. I looked up some dolls online too, which helped calm me. Jesus made me feel soothed after some time and gave me peace to know that I wont be hurt that way again and that the softness of dolls will help me heal, and that it is okay to collect them and to just be mindful of price. I didn't expect to become a doll collector but it replaces avatar communities and I really enjoy playing with dolls. One day I want to get a doll house.