...since I posted a blog in here. I miss my old one quite a bit. I had a lot of memories in that one. But I suppose I can start over with this one, eh?
After a few weeks of hell, my life is starting to fall back into its normal pace. I've been feeling a bit odd, however. I just feel numb towards everything. I mean, I have no reason to feel numb or empty, my life is amazing. I have great friends and great fun with them. It's just like the things that I used to get so much joy out of aren't fun anymore... with one exception.
Gabe makes my days enjoyable. I can't help but smile like an idiot when he walks into the room. Every stupid face he makes is adorable. I feel on top of the world when we hold hands, and those intense moments where he gets close to me and looks into my eyes gives me the craziest butterflies.
He's such an amazing person. I've never met someone who does so much for other people; he's remarkably kind. He's intelligent to the point that I almost can't stand it. He has so much knowledge about so many different things and can apply them so flawlessly to his own life. He's talented in so many ways: he can write stories and songs, he is also a black belt in Karate, like yours truly. Plus, he can sing. Oh, can that boy sing.
Did I mention that he's also gorgeous?
He is so far out of my league.
My only wish is that this doesn't fall apart like other relationships have, and if/when it ends we will still be friends and be okay with everything.
In other news, I'm trying to get closer with God again (for the hundredth time). I think going to a Pentecostal church has freed me of some of my inhibitions. I feel like I can worship more freely in my own church now. It's a good feeling.
After a few weeks of hell, my life is starting to fall back into its normal pace. I've been feeling a bit odd, however. I just feel numb towards everything. I mean, I have no reason to feel numb or empty, my life is amazing. I have great friends and great fun with them. It's just like the things that I used to get so much joy out of aren't fun anymore... with one exception.
Gabe makes my days enjoyable. I can't help but smile like an idiot when he walks into the room. Every stupid face he makes is adorable. I feel on top of the world when we hold hands, and those intense moments where he gets close to me and looks into my eyes gives me the craziest butterflies.
He's such an amazing person. I've never met someone who does so much for other people; he's remarkably kind. He's intelligent to the point that I almost can't stand it. He has so much knowledge about so many different things and can apply them so flawlessly to his own life. He's talented in so many ways: he can write stories and songs, he is also a black belt in Karate, like yours truly. Plus, he can sing. Oh, can that boy sing.
Did I mention that he's also gorgeous?He is so far out of my league.
My only wish is that this doesn't fall apart like other relationships have, and if/when it ends we will still be friends and be okay with everything.
In other news, I'm trying to get closer with God again (for the hundredth time). I think going to a Pentecostal church has freed me of some of my inhibitions. I feel like I can worship more freely in my own church now. It's a good feeling.
