It dosent even matter.

So ill admit I thinking blogging is stupid. I never read them or anything but I realized it helps clear your mind.


Have you ever just thought WAY to hard into life? Like you look around a place with alot of people and think "why are they happy? they have nothing to be happy about. Do you realize what happening in the world! Do you ever wonder why your here??"
It angers me.
I feel like im missing out on something. Im not happy. I see no point of being here. If God says heaven is a place with pain no suffering then why am I down here struggling to get out of bed in the morning! It just makes no sense. I feel like disconnected from everyone. Like there on one side and im on the other. I just dont get it. What am I missing?? Why cant I be happy? Why cant I live happily? Is there something wrong with me or them?
I wish I could find that missing piece....
I never realized that the way you think affects your body. Im shaky,naseaus,heart racing,tired,scared,sad,etc......the list goes on. No matter what I do. Know matter what people say I see NO reason to stay here. Dont think im nuts or anything. Im not going to go drink myself to death or jump of a building but I just dont see what people see in life. Theres nothing beautiful about it. nothing exciting because in the end just like Linkin Park says,it dosent even matter.




So why stay
Why try
Because in the end



It dosent even matter.......