My Dear Christian Friends,
I am in need of your prayers. I have come to a point with my life where I am in despair. I don't know what to do.
My mother got sick a few years ago and she no longer could hold her job. So my parents have been living off my father's salary. In order to save our home, my brother and I help out financially, but has put a strain on our finances. My younger brother's hours at work were reduced and this put such a financial strain on him that he ended up moving back home.
Last year, I took out my entire savings so I could pay for the last semester of college so that I could graduate. Under normal circumstances, I would be financially okay, but unexpected bills keep coming up such as health care bills, car repairs, etc. And I just can't seem to keep up. I have thought about not giving my parents any money, but they depend on my monthly contributions. I don't even have any money to tithe anymore!
Last night, my roommate and I went to the movies and when I tried to pull cash out of the ATM, the machine said that I had insufficient funds. I was horrified at this sight. How can this happen? I only had $6.58 in my checking account. I just got paid yesterday, Friday, and come Saturday night, I am left without nothing. My paycheck was diminished to $6.58! I used the paycheck to give my parents money and to pay for rent. I went home last night upset. My stomach was in knots with thoughts to myself "How could this be?". I checked my bank statement and certain things cleared i.e. health insurance. How can this happen to me? I have always been the strong one. The one who was financially stable. The one my family and friends looked to when they are in need. Now, I am the one in need. But no one around me can help. I can't even go to my parents because they are also in a financial bind. I'm too embarrassed to ask anyone else.
So I cried and prayed the most earnest prayer of my life, "Lord, please help me. I don't know what's come about. How can I be in this position? Please take care of me. I don't lie, cheat, steal. I help others and give all the time. Why is this happening to me? What lesson do you want me to learn from this catastrophe? My heart can't take it anymore. I don't even have money for gas to take me to work and school. I have no money for food. I can't feed my dog. I emptied out my entire savings. I am in the biggest financial rut I've ever experienced. What can I do? Lord, there's nothing that I can do. I need your blessings. I need your miracle. Please Lord help me".
After my prayer, I just stayed in my room. Down and depressed. I felt this knot in my stomach. Like someone knocked the air out of me and unable to get back up. I laid in bed thinking that I should just stay in my room because what's the point of getting out of bed. Everything outside my room is coming out to get me. My dog came into my room and licked my tears away. He stayed there with me and did not leave my side until I fell asleep. I thank God for giving me a dog to comfort me.
I know that there are many people that have gone through what I'm going through. In fact, I'm sure others have gone through a lot worse than what I'm going through. I am grateful for the blessings I have in my life and I continue to pray and have faith. But I just can't seem to stop worrying about my own state. Moreover, I can't stop worrying about my family and their state. Last night really tested my faith.
Please pray for me. I am in tears as I write this.
I am in need of your prayers. I have come to a point with my life where I am in despair. I don't know what to do.
My mother got sick a few years ago and she no longer could hold her job. So my parents have been living off my father's salary. In order to save our home, my brother and I help out financially, but has put a strain on our finances. My younger brother's hours at work were reduced and this put such a financial strain on him that he ended up moving back home.
Last year, I took out my entire savings so I could pay for the last semester of college so that I could graduate. Under normal circumstances, I would be financially okay, but unexpected bills keep coming up such as health care bills, car repairs, etc. And I just can't seem to keep up. I have thought about not giving my parents any money, but they depend on my monthly contributions. I don't even have any money to tithe anymore!
Last night, my roommate and I went to the movies and when I tried to pull cash out of the ATM, the machine said that I had insufficient funds. I was horrified at this sight. How can this happen? I only had $6.58 in my checking account. I just got paid yesterday, Friday, and come Saturday night, I am left without nothing. My paycheck was diminished to $6.58! I used the paycheck to give my parents money and to pay for rent. I went home last night upset. My stomach was in knots with thoughts to myself "How could this be?". I checked my bank statement and certain things cleared i.e. health insurance. How can this happen to me? I have always been the strong one. The one who was financially stable. The one my family and friends looked to when they are in need. Now, I am the one in need. But no one around me can help. I can't even go to my parents because they are also in a financial bind. I'm too embarrassed to ask anyone else.
So I cried and prayed the most earnest prayer of my life, "Lord, please help me. I don't know what's come about. How can I be in this position? Please take care of me. I don't lie, cheat, steal. I help others and give all the time. Why is this happening to me? What lesson do you want me to learn from this catastrophe? My heart can't take it anymore. I don't even have money for gas to take me to work and school. I have no money for food. I can't feed my dog. I emptied out my entire savings. I am in the biggest financial rut I've ever experienced. What can I do? Lord, there's nothing that I can do. I need your blessings. I need your miracle. Please Lord help me".
After my prayer, I just stayed in my room. Down and depressed. I felt this knot in my stomach. Like someone knocked the air out of me and unable to get back up. I laid in bed thinking that I should just stay in my room because what's the point of getting out of bed. Everything outside my room is coming out to get me. My dog came into my room and licked my tears away. He stayed there with me and did not leave my side until I fell asleep. I thank God for giving me a dog to comfort me.
I know that there are many people that have gone through what I'm going through. In fact, I'm sure others have gone through a lot worse than what I'm going through. I am grateful for the blessings I have in my life and I continue to pray and have faith. But I just can't seem to stop worrying about my own state. Moreover, I can't stop worrying about my family and their state. Last night really tested my faith.
Please pray for me. I am in tears as I write this.
