I met this girl who dyed her hair as red as the devils. She just moved here and I was her first friend. We hung out almost everyday, I would walk her home. I thought it was going to turn out for the best (boyfriend and girlfriend) it did not however. On new years eve we were supposed to hang out and I called her many times, but it kept going to voice mail. I called her and said "One of your friends said someone had alcohol poisoning, it better not be you! Call me back or I am coming to your house!" I took a cab to her house and I was drunk and high from pot I smoked. No one was home, I was crying now so I ask the cab driver to drop me off at the hospital, I ask the nurse if she was there and she was. I went to the bathroom then got out and her father was there. I asked him to come outside. We grew so close and despite being high and drunk, I talked very well and I found out what happened to her. She had a .2 B.A.C. and was unconscious. The next day I go over to her house and say, "Listen I really care about you, I'm thinking this can be more than friends." She says "I know you do." The following 3 weeks, I didn't go to my youth group and smoked pot everyday. I was planning on developing this care free attitude so I wouldn't care that she didn't want to be my boyfriend. One day, I went out for a run and I had a near death experience, I knew it was from God. The old man came out of the car and I said I was sorry. The car was slowing down for me, but it just suddenly sped up and no car could have went as fast as it went if God was not controlling it. God was the driver and he slapped me in the face. I walked home crying and I couldn't believe how much he loved me. I was still depressed though, about this girl so a couple days later I was walking to my friends house on a Friday afternoon and I was planning on talking to him, when I saw Jen, my youth leaders wife, in her van and I said "Hey Jen can you give me a ride?" she said "sure, but let me get some coffee." I was sitting there in that car, saying to myself, "God loves me, thank you so much, I will never go on my own path, I will go with you." So I told her I was feeling depressed and everything above, she felt really bad and said "I'll get Craig to talk to you." Me and Craigs talk followed to an amazing night and Campus Life, our youth group. We were playing dodgeball with middle school kids, the music was bumping, then in my head the music stopped, all the kids smiles were captured for me to see, and I was about to cry on how much I missed without God.
God will never give up on you, if you have faith of a mustard seed. I still had that little faith in me, even though I was doing drugs.
God will never give up on you, if you have faith of a mustard seed. I still had that little faith in me, even though I was doing drugs.
