I Think My Dad Hates Me...

I'm pretty sure that my dad hates me. I know that a lot of teenagers say that same thing, but I really don't feel loved whenever I'm around him. I'm bipolar, and I think he holds it against me, as if it's my fault. Now whenever I have a normal teenage reaction, he blows up at me, telling me I'm rude and a bully. I ask my younger sister to pick up something when we're cleaning and I get yelled at for being bossy, even if I say please. My other sister can ask the exact same thing, and no one is bothered. Constantly my dad calls me a bully, or hateful, or rude. I'm not ever trying to be, in fact, I hate it when people are mean. When my dad yells at me, I try to explain myself, but instead he yells at me for talking back and grounds me or spanks me. When I object, trying to explain what was happening, he just yells more. The worst part is, he's the pastor at our church. He preaches tolerance and understanding, but I feel like he has none for me. It hurts, especially because I love my family so much. Pray for me to experience my dad's love and for him to be more understanding.