I got back in touch with my friends, yep... And I'm glad I did.
Its rare you find anyone who you can trust with all your faults and flaws that knows your through and through, alot of people don't find it in a mate or friends...so you're doing good if you find it in either one. Lucky if you find it in both.
Anyway, I started feeling bad how I felt, jealous and all... Because they were able to be happy for me and my friend is going to be married and it'd be fked up not to have anyone happy for you. I know how its like to not have anyone to celebrate your happiness with you ...
And when I thought about all he went through just to be where he is today( being married ,have a nice job..ect) it was A LOT! ....he deserves to be happy.
And I need to be there for him...and her(my other friend) ...and I think that's one of the reasons I got all teary eyed when he talked about proposing...because everything he went through....and now he's here...
And when I think of it all, it makes me feel like such a shxtty betch for trying to flake out on my friends when life is being good to them...that's so stupid ....and selfish.
I'm lucky he and she decided to answer my texts after my hiatus....because good friends that are real.....are hard to come by and should be held on to for as long as possible....
Which is another reason why I cried, when my friend gets married.... In pretty sure he'll move on.. Like I feel he'll have to stop speaking to me because...it'll look odd having a wife and texting a friend you met online ...like me and this friend can talk for hours on the phone...and yah know...it becomes suspect xD lol... But if never stand in the way of love.
I definitely don't mind moving out the way.... I just wish our friendship could last forever..because I HATE letting go....especially when its something good.
I wish there was a way around it...I don't think there is....
And it sucks to say good bye... Becausse as a natural loner(trying to change that)
It was always hard to make friends...and he was a better friend to me than any friend I made in real life...besides me best friend I've known since I was 6...and now he's my best friend...some I met online...but is truly like a brother to me
Better than my real ones honestly....that's why I tried to run ..because this reality is painful as hell... You don't meet too many good people but shxtty people are a dime a dozen. The messed up pastor that crippled my faith came from my own damn family ..go figure lol...
But that's still no exscuse to run and hide, if you really love someone you'll be happy for them no matter what...and you'll be there for them to the very end...no matter what. If you lose touch or things naturally drift ( getting teary eyed)
I pray for a life long friendship, we both toasted to it.over text lol...but whatever happens. Its okay... and I understand. Ill be there for my friend supporting him to the very end. I'm glad I got over myself and I'm glad for the people telling me to do so too, bc real friends are hard to come by ...so when it happens hold on to it...,because you don't know when you may have to let it go.
Thanks guys, I'm going to enjoy my friendships for however long they last.
Its rare you find anyone who you can trust with all your faults and flaws that knows your through and through, alot of people don't find it in a mate or friends...so you're doing good if you find it in either one. Lucky if you find it in both.
Anyway, I started feeling bad how I felt, jealous and all... Because they were able to be happy for me and my friend is going to be married and it'd be fked up not to have anyone happy for you. I know how its like to not have anyone to celebrate your happiness with you ...
And when I thought about all he went through just to be where he is today( being married ,have a nice job..ect) it was A LOT! ....he deserves to be happy.
And I need to be there for him...and her(my other friend) ...and I think that's one of the reasons I got all teary eyed when he talked about proposing...because everything he went through....and now he's here...
And when I think of it all, it makes me feel like such a shxtty betch for trying to flake out on my friends when life is being good to them...that's so stupid ....and selfish.
I'm lucky he and she decided to answer my texts after my hiatus....because good friends that are real.....are hard to come by and should be held on to for as long as possible....
Which is another reason why I cried, when my friend gets married.... In pretty sure he'll move on.. Like I feel he'll have to stop speaking to me because...it'll look odd having a wife and texting a friend you met online ...like me and this friend can talk for hours on the phone...and yah know...it becomes suspect xD lol... But if never stand in the way of love.
I definitely don't mind moving out the way.... I just wish our friendship could last forever..because I HATE letting go....especially when its something good.
I wish there was a way around it...I don't think there is....
And it sucks to say good bye... Becausse as a natural loner(trying to change that)
It was always hard to make friends...and he was a better friend to me than any friend I made in real life...besides me best friend I've known since I was 6...and now he's my best friend...some I met online...but is truly like a brother to me
Better than my real ones honestly....that's why I tried to run ..because this reality is painful as hell... You don't meet too many good people but shxtty people are a dime a dozen. The messed up pastor that crippled my faith came from my own damn family ..go figure lol...
But that's still no exscuse to run and hide, if you really love someone you'll be happy for them no matter what...and you'll be there for them to the very end...no matter what. If you lose touch or things naturally drift ( getting teary eyed)
I pray for a life long friendship, we both toasted to it.over text lol...but whatever happens. Its okay... and I understand. Ill be there for my friend supporting him to the very end. I'm glad I got over myself and I'm glad for the people telling me to do so too, bc real friends are hard to come by ...so when it happens hold on to it...,because you don't know when you may have to let it go.
Thanks guys, I'm going to enjoy my friendships for however long they last.