My name is Zorica Ivancevic and i wanted to have someone any one here my storry so here it goess.Win i was a little girl i was so happy
i did so good in school i always stayed after school to run with my techer and we did that almost evry day. So one day i stayed after just like eny ether day and my dad was supost so come and pick me up at the school evry day at 5pm that day he never showed up. He was to bizze yelleing at my big brother cuz my dad seen him smoking weed and yahh he forgot all about me so i tryed to call him and my mom but they did not pick up so i started walking home it was my frst time walking him at the age of 14. I seen a vann and it stoped in front of me he put a gun up to me and told me if i did not get in thin he would kill me...I did not know what to do or what to say so i just got in and he raped me and throw me out i want back to the school and clened my self off i was so scared to tell anyone so i just kepped it to my self....my dad finaly came and he asked me how my day was and i told him it was ok. But what my dad did not see was that nothin was ok i was scared, hurt, sad, mad....So i just kepped it in never told anyone will on my 15th bday it happined agin not just one time at 15 but 2 so all together it happined 3 times. After that i stoped talking i never talked in school and wanted nothing to do with anyone.
i did so good in school i always stayed after school to run with my techer and we did that almost evry day. So one day i stayed after just like eny ether day and my dad was supost so come and pick me up at the school evry day at 5pm that day he never showed up. He was to bizze yelleing at my big brother cuz my dad seen him smoking weed and yahh he forgot all about me so i tryed to call him and my mom but they did not pick up so i started walking home it was my frst time walking him at the age of 14. I seen a vann and it stoped in front of me he put a gun up to me and told me if i did not get in thin he would kill me...I did not know what to do or what to say so i just got in and he raped me and throw me out i want back to the school and clened my self off i was so scared to tell anyone so i just kepped it to my self....my dad finaly came and he asked me how my day was and i told him it was ok. But what my dad did not see was that nothin was ok i was scared, hurt, sad, mad....So i just kepped it in never told anyone will on my 15th bday it happined agin not just one time at 15 but 2 so all together it happined 3 times. After that i stoped talking i never talked in school and wanted nothing to do with anyone.But one day at school i meet a girl named Shelbie she was in the same class as me she was sitting right behind me, and she asked me how to say my name and i told her it was Z>O>R>I>C>A thin she was like i like that name and i stoped talking after that but she keeped talking to me trying to get me to talk to her to just say anything to her. So i told her that i go by Zee and she was like no ur name is zorica and thats what people r going to call u. And at frst i did not know what she meant by that but as the days keeped going she always talked to me thin be becam best friends i told her evrething and she told me evrething too i never thou that i could ever have a best friend i never had a best friend so her being my best friend i never wanted to loss but we want to high school together and thats win evrething changed me and her stoped being friends over a guy. i really liked this guy is name was Rickey and i meet im friest day off school he sat down with me at lunch cuz i was sitting by my selff and he started to talk to me and me and shelbie always had this thing if wee see some one that we like thin we have to tell one a nether so we wold tell echother if they was nice or mean.. So i told shelbie and she meet him, thats win all 3 of us stared hanging out and one day she pased me a note saying "I kissed rickey" but i thou she was just playing with me so i asked her and she said "No im really sorry but i really did kiss him" i was so mad at her i stoped talking to her for a little and thin rickey and shelbie started to go out and i did not care at that time so me and shelbie started being bestfriends agin and as for me and rickey we was best friends too so i thou it was going to work out... So they was going out for about 2months and shelbie passed me a nether note this time it said "i cheated on rickey with matt" so thin i was like shelbie plezz tell me u did not his like my best friend u cant do that to him he has not done anything to u for u to do that to him... So he fowned out after shelbie brock up with him and storted going out with is guy named matt and she did not talk to me like we always did she never told me anything and we never hang ouut agin but me and rickey was still best friends and one day i told him what shelbie told me and he got really mad not at me or shelbie or matt juat at the world and thin shelbie tred to fix things with wis and told me to go out with rickey so i asked her " if i do go out with him will that stop us from bing best friends cuz if it will he is not writh me lossing my best friend for 7 years" and she said "no not at all go for it" some we atered going out and she stoped being my friend me and im was together for a year and 3 months..........thin i lost tham all
So here ii amm 16 years old and stoped talking to evre one will once agin i got raped so that was 4 time all together and i just started to gave up on life...
But thin one day after school this guy named Kevin came to see me.. he was shelbies big brother i liked him for a long time and he liked me for a long time to we have knowin one a nother for 10years and i never tryed talking to him more thin friends cuz i was his sisters bestfriend and she did not want us togther so we did not get toogther but that day win he came to see me i was so happy to see him... will i had to walk home from school and go to work and he and some of is friends was walking the same way as me so he walked with me and talked to me he asked me if i had a boyfriend and i said "no" thine he stoped and looked at me and asked me y not and i told him that there was no one out there for me....thats win he said " look u know that i like u so much and i came just to see u and talk to u and hang out with u, u know that i can get any girl that i wan but i dont want just any girl i want to be with u" thats in i stoped and looked at him i did not know what to say so i did not say anything so we walked me him and he gave me a hug and told me that he will call me and told me to have a good day at work....
Thin he called me win i got off work and told me to come out sid so i did and we hung out and talked....so we talked for a fow days and thin started to go out and one day me and my friend want over to his house and he looked at me and asked me to go for a walk with him so i said yahh thats win he brock up with me and he told me that he loves me but i was best friends with is sister and that he was so sorry....I did not say anything to him i just walked back to the house and want and hung out with my friend stephane and she hured about it and she tuck me home thin one day she asked me to hang out with her so i said yes and kevin was there and i did not talk to him or anything so we left and the next day i want to work and got a phone call so i piked up and this is what happined.>>>>>>
Me__hello
Kevi__ hey what r u doing
Me___ nothing at work who is this
Kevin__ its me Kevin
Me__ o umm hey
Kevin___ look i need to talk to u can u call me win u get off work??
Me__ i guess but y
Kevin__ win u know that one day win i told u something
Me___ Kevin u told me a lot what r u talking about
Kevin__ im talking about that day we brock up
Me__ o umm yahh
Kevin___ will i have been thinking and i fell like i mad a big mistack
Me__ o umm
Kevin__ just call me win u get off plzzz
Me___ Ok
Kevin___Bye i love u
Me___ bye
thin i hung up not telling him i loved him cuz i was scaed to...
so i called him win i got off work and he did not pick up so i just felt like he was just playing...i was a little mad but tine i felt like i sould have seen it coming....
But i was wrong he called me back and asked me win my next day off was and i told im it was {5/3/11} so he asked me if i wanted to hang out with him and i said idk thin he was like plezz i really want to talk to u so i said ok thin we hung out and he told me that he wants me back....I stoped and looked at him and said " look im not a little play toy that u can keep runing back to eveytime u need something" and he said "NO its not like that i really do care about u and love u so much plezz talk me back"
and i asked him " r u sure that u want to be with me this time cuz if ur not sure thin for get it" that win he told me that he was 1000% sure and i said ok all talk u back so we was boyfriend and girlfriend agin...
thin one day we did something that i was so scared to do and in a moth i fownd out that i was prago i did not know how to tell him or how to tell my family what was they going to thank of me or say about me....i told him and my mom fowned out she told my dad and my dad said that he wanted to talk to Kevin so they talked my dad was so nice to him and i have never seen my dad be nice to any guy like that but he told him that its time for hime to steep up and be a fother thin me and Kevin started leving together.... we want to go find out wit that baby was going to be a boy or girl and they told us that it was a baby boy and we got so happy we name him Jadin Reese Marlett and thin they told us that he was died in sid of me
thin i brok down crying and he did too.... we left home and we moved in with some friends thin my dad stared to hate kevin cuz i lost the baby and tall this day my dad hate's him and me i dont talk to my dad at all but i leve back at home with him and my mom as for Kevin he leves with his brother me and him are still together but strogoling so bad we have to tall my familly that we do not go out and we cant really talk or see one a nother and win we do we have to be so cerfoll......
Me__hello
Kevi__ hey what r u doing
Me___ nothing at work who is this
Kevin__ its me Kevin
Me__ o umm hey
Kevin___ look i need to talk to u can u call me win u get off work??
Me__ i guess but y
Kevin__ win u know that one day win i told u something
Me___ Kevin u told me a lot what r u talking about
Kevin__ im talking about that day we brock up
Me__ o umm yahh
Kevin___ will i have been thinking and i fell like i mad a big mistack
Me__ o umm
Kevin__ just call me win u get off plzzz
Me___ Ok
Kevin___Bye i love u
Me___ bye
thin i hung up not telling him i loved him cuz i was scaed to...
so i called him win i got off work and he did not pick up so i just felt like he was just playing...i was a little mad but tine i felt like i sould have seen it coming....
But i was wrong he called me back and asked me win my next day off was and i told im it was {5/3/11} so he asked me if i wanted to hang out with him and i said idk thin he was like plezz i really want to talk to u so i said ok thin we hung out and he told me that he wants me back....I stoped and looked at him and said " look im not a little play toy that u can keep runing back to eveytime u need something" and he said "NO its not like that i really do care about u and love u so much plezz talk me back"
and i asked him " r u sure that u want to be with me this time cuz if ur not sure thin for get it" that win he told me that he was 1000% sure and i said ok all talk u back so we was boyfriend and girlfriend agin...
thin one day we did something that i was so scared to do and in a moth i fownd out that i was prago i did not know how to tell him or how to tell my family what was they going to thank of me or say about me....i told him and my mom fowned out she told my dad and my dad said that he wanted to talk to Kevin so they talked my dad was so nice to him and i have never seen my dad be nice to any guy like that but he told him that its time for hime to steep up and be a fother thin me and Kevin started leving together.... we want to go find out wit that baby was going to be a boy or girl and they told us that it was a baby boy and we got so happy we name him Jadin Reese Marlett and thin they told us that he was died in sid of me
thin i brok down crying and he did too.... we left home and we moved in with some friends thin my dad stared to hate kevin cuz i lost the baby and tall this day my dad hate's him and me i dont talk to my dad at all but i leve back at home with him and my mom as for Kevin he leves with his brother me and him are still together but strogoling so bad we have to tall my familly that we do not go out and we cant really talk or see one a nother and win we do we have to be so cerfoll......will thats my storrry for now and it just keeps going as the days go but My dad told me that i have to find a place to leve cuz he does not want me here but im only 17 years old we or who old let a 17 yearold and her boyfriend rent a place not any one that i know of..... i have beenn working for 3years at the same place it is my forst job and only job...........I just dont know what to do any more i love Kevin so much and he is the only one that i have left he knows evrething about me from my raps to my fav color he knows it all he is my boyfriend and my best friend 
why does this have to happin to me i dont get it its like all i did was try to help people and be happy but now its so difrant i have asked my self all the time hom am i still here or y am i still here will i still dont know that......
why does this have to happin to me i dont get it its like all i did was try to help people and be happy but now its so difrant i have asked my self all the time hom am i still here or y am i still here will i still dont know that......But if some one reads this and if u thank that u can gave me some edvice thin plezz e~mail me or if u have any Q~S just ask me all be 100 with u thank u for reading this........
