The only reason I signed up for this website is to ask for some Christian advice, because none of my friends or family members are able to help me in this situation. I've asked many people, but I always get the same response. "Just pray about it." That's all well and good, but I need to make a decision quickly and I can't feel God's presence and I don't know what to expect as an answer from Him.
My problem is this: I am a freshman at a SDA university. I'm far away from home and I have no friends here. I have met lots of people, but no one I'd do more than chat with at lunch time or something like that. I don't have an easy time making friends, and when I'm alone for too long I get scared and depressed. (I have issues with depression; I've inherited it from both sides of my family.) Also, I feel guilty about being away from home because there is a lot going on with my family and I wish I was there to help.
Recently, I've just wanted to go home. I'm depressed and unmotivated at school, and I feel like my family needs me. And, if my apathy reflects in my studies, there's no point in me finishing the semester anyway. When I told my family this, however, they were worried about money. My family is very poor, and the only reason I was able to go to college is because of scholarships, loans, and money I've saved by working. My parents are afraid of me losing my loans, basically. (I still need to talk to my finance adviser about this to see if something can be worked out.)
Also, I'm wondering if it's the right decision for me to go home. I would start school again in the fall. By then, the issues at home should be progressing and I'd have some friends I know from high school transferring/ graduating and coming to the same university. But I'm still not sure if I should leave.
I was talking to my friends earlier in the year when I was feeling depressed and she said God told her He had a plan for me and she believed I was supposed to be at this university. I don't know if that's true, but I always try to find a reason behind suffering. (I know it's not always something I can understand, but I can't help but try.) I don't know if I should stay and just keep praying for my family and for personal strength, or if I'm supposed to go home. I can't tell where I'm being led, and I can't wait to make a decision much longer. Does anyone know what I should do?
My problem is this: I am a freshman at a SDA university. I'm far away from home and I have no friends here. I have met lots of people, but no one I'd do more than chat with at lunch time or something like that. I don't have an easy time making friends, and when I'm alone for too long I get scared and depressed. (I have issues with depression; I've inherited it from both sides of my family.) Also, I feel guilty about being away from home because there is a lot going on with my family and I wish I was there to help.
Recently, I've just wanted to go home. I'm depressed and unmotivated at school, and I feel like my family needs me. And, if my apathy reflects in my studies, there's no point in me finishing the semester anyway. When I told my family this, however, they were worried about money. My family is very poor, and the only reason I was able to go to college is because of scholarships, loans, and money I've saved by working. My parents are afraid of me losing my loans, basically. (I still need to talk to my finance adviser about this to see if something can be worked out.)
Also, I'm wondering if it's the right decision for me to go home. I would start school again in the fall. By then, the issues at home should be progressing and I'd have some friends I know from high school transferring/ graduating and coming to the same university. But I'm still not sure if I should leave.
I was talking to my friends earlier in the year when I was feeling depressed and she said God told her He had a plan for me and she believed I was supposed to be at this university. I don't know if that's true, but I always try to find a reason behind suffering. (I know it's not always something I can understand, but I can't help but try.) I don't know if I should stay and just keep praying for my family and for personal strength, or if I'm supposed to go home. I can't tell where I'm being led, and I can't wait to make a decision much longer. Does anyone know what I should do?
