People tell me all the time that I should not refer myself as gay. I don't get it. I have to tell people. I don't want people to love for being they think I am. I don't want people to be loving and nice to me and then later hate me because they somehow found out. Believe or not, it's happen to me before. It hurts.
Don't get me homosexuality is sin. I do not live the lifestyle; except I struggle with lust. But I am still a gay man just like a heterosexual man who is single is still a heterosexual.
I hate lying to people that ask. So I don't lie. Why do they ask? Because it's the world that focuses on labels and sex. I am playing their game. I find it rediculous; but it is what it is.
I remember being at work, and this lady was talking about this guy; and she was saying that she really believes that he's gay. She kept saying this over and over again. I wanted to say "shut up. Why do you care if he is gay or not? If he is denying it, then that's your answer. Leave it at that." Of course, I am a coward.
But I am sick of this world and their labels. I am sick of people worrying whether or not if I am a virgin or not; which I am. I am going to be a 40 year old virgin. So what? Am I loser because of that?
I love this world, and lately I love being alive. But the people suck.
Don't get me homosexuality is sin. I do not live the lifestyle; except I struggle with lust. But I am still a gay man just like a heterosexual man who is single is still a heterosexual.
I hate lying to people that ask. So I don't lie. Why do they ask? Because it's the world that focuses on labels and sex. I am playing their game. I find it rediculous; but it is what it is.
I remember being at work, and this lady was talking about this guy; and she was saying that she really believes that he's gay. She kept saying this over and over again. I wanted to say "shut up. Why do you care if he is gay or not? If he is denying it, then that's your answer. Leave it at that." Of course, I am a coward.
But I am sick of this world and their labels. I am sick of people worrying whether or not if I am a virgin or not; which I am. I am going to be a 40 year old virgin. So what? Am I loser because of that?
I love this world, and lately I love being alive. But the people suck.
