I did daily devotionals today....

I did daily devotionals today and while reading what the storyteller wrote it actually helped me make some sense in my life and make sense of what is going on around me presently ,of course I needed several tissues and cried alot but in the end I came away with a newfound understanding of things and I've learned that if I let go and Let God that he will lead me in the right direction I just have to willing to do this for so long I have not been able to let go of everything that has hurt me emotionally and mentally as well as physically ,but today for some reason I felt y self letting go of it all for the first time in 28 years and for the first time I have been able to forgve all who have done wrong to me or have hurt me in the past and present ,I know I am not a perfect person by any means but I am blessed to have God at my side and here with me to talk to always and that's the most important thing ,even if I never get to talk to my bf again or even see her again I will always love her and forgive her for the choice she made and even though it's painful to go through right now ,it's a growing experence for me and a hard lesson to learn but one I know I will never forget ,I know now I need to ask god before I say or act upon things and I need to walk with God in his way's not mine ,and obey him not be selfish and want to do things my way because in the end all I am really doing is hurting him and rebelling against his teachings and love and I would rather not do that at all ,sometimes life is hard but in the scheme of things it's not if we trust God to show us the right path,to my bf I know you were right and I ask for your forgivness and someday I hope to receive it but it will be when God feels we are all ready to forgive one another