I've been a Pastor's daughter all my life, and it's like living under the microscope where the church people always observe my actions, and that makes me pressure!, they expecting me to be almost perfect though I'm not.I was blessed with parents who where balanced and they never put the church before us at our expense.
I always remember that I was born into a Pastoral family for a reason and so I might as well serve God and not focus on the people,But I think loneliness is the biggest issues to deal with, it seems like it's perfectly ok for us to be stepped on again and again while we could not do the same, just because my father is a pastor, doesn't mean that, it's complicated, people have high expectation from us, and we do right things yet we are dealt with harshly whenever we don't meet their expectations which they don't have for themselves and other churchgoers, we don't get the respect deserved! we are throwing ourselves when serving, throwing our hearts and guts out, and sometimes still get stepped on. How I wish we could get the same treatment as other churchgoers.
I can't say certain things, it's like a battle going to church, it's a little hard to feel secure at church or be myself, it's a kind of like the opposite situations for others who come to church for healing, to share problems, there are lot of problems that I can't share, it's a one way relationship with church for me not entirely but to a great extent.
I studied at the christian institution, ever since, when everyone knows i'm a PK.I don't have lots of friends no one knew me they just know i'm the PK and that's it! I know the two stereotypes they put on us: rebel or goody -two-shoe.I got that question from everyone who tried to get to know me. But why should I be defined by others by a stereotype?It isn't fair of them or me to think that way.
I'm the pastor's kid and I wish we weren't judged so much.We should be seen as imperfect humans not a pastoral child-saints. It shouldn't be so hard to be a christian following Jesus Christ.
I remember one time when my grandmother told me that I should be nicer than her other grandchildren and I must set as a good example to them just because I'm a Pk. and I always put that on my mind ever since.So I always tried my best to act holy, speak with modesty, always be kind to everyone, even when I don't feel it....
even though i thought that being a PK is more negative than being positive...later on I just realized that being a Pk is such a great blessings from God, indeed, coz I can be an agent of change , touch someones life, could build people and definitely make a difference
I always remember that I was born into a Pastoral family for a reason and so I might as well serve God and not focus on the people,But I think loneliness is the biggest issues to deal with, it seems like it's perfectly ok for us to be stepped on again and again while we could not do the same, just because my father is a pastor, doesn't mean that, it's complicated, people have high expectation from us, and we do right things yet we are dealt with harshly whenever we don't meet their expectations which they don't have for themselves and other churchgoers, we don't get the respect deserved! we are throwing ourselves when serving, throwing our hearts and guts out, and sometimes still get stepped on. How I wish we could get the same treatment as other churchgoers.
I can't say certain things, it's like a battle going to church, it's a little hard to feel secure at church or be myself, it's a kind of like the opposite situations for others who come to church for healing, to share problems, there are lot of problems that I can't share, it's a one way relationship with church for me not entirely but to a great extent.
I studied at the christian institution, ever since, when everyone knows i'm a PK.I don't have lots of friends no one knew me they just know i'm the PK and that's it! I know the two stereotypes they put on us: rebel or goody -two-shoe.I got that question from everyone who tried to get to know me. But why should I be defined by others by a stereotype?It isn't fair of them or me to think that way.
I'm the pastor's kid and I wish we weren't judged so much.We should be seen as imperfect humans not a pastoral child-saints. It shouldn't be so hard to be a christian following Jesus Christ.
I remember one time when my grandmother told me that I should be nicer than her other grandchildren and I must set as a good example to them just because I'm a Pk. and I always put that on my mind ever since.So I always tried my best to act holy, speak with modesty, always be kind to everyone, even when I don't feel it....
even though i thought that being a PK is more negative than being positive...later on I just realized that being a Pk is such a great blessings from God, indeed, coz I can be an agent of change , touch someones life, could build people and definitely make a difference
