i just want to be normal. i just want to be a normal 19 year old. i want to be going to college, partying, i want everything the way it used to be. i want to be able to go to the library without lugging a crying baby and a diaper bag too. ik these are my choices and my mistakes its all my fault. but the truth is i dont want kids. but i have one. and im thankful for her but sometimes i just want to be normal. accutally almost all of the time. everyone says im just having a hard time adjusting to the new normal. and i am. im in denial. i dont want it to be my normal. 
