God is amazing and Im sure there arent very many people who would disagree with me on that one. If there is please let me know you will need some serious prayer and Im willing to do that for you. Im not for sure how to begin this particular blog but something has been in my heart lately that I felt I needed to share. I took Bailey my 4yr old to the mall with me this past week and after a little shopping I let her play in the little play area they have set up for the kids. While we where there I was watching her and the other children playing nothing out of the ordinary just what you would expect to see little children doing. Then something happened God happened for a few moments he allowed me to see those kids playing the way he see's them. Something inside me shook for a bit because I knew what he was gunning for in my heart. I realized that these little kids all played with one another regardless of there color, there size, or there finacial status. These kids didnt see someone and say oh my look how overweight that kid is or wow I cant play with her look how dirty she looks she must me poor, or he isnt the same color as me. No those kids all ran, chased, jumped, screamed, and had a blast. I seen how precious that is to God how his desire would be for our hearts to forever stay like that. No wonder Jesus loved the little children. They truely are without the contamination that we all eventually get from the world. Which started me thinking at what age do those things start to appear in ones heart. Im not talking about pure hatred or racism just judging. Judging people by there outward look without even knowing the heart inside. I know I am guilty of that not all of the time but certainly sometimes. I will be out somewhere then this thought will come in to my head or sometimes I will even verbalize it. Thoughts like (I cant believe she would walk around in public like that or do you know how to brush your kids hair or seriously one more trip to the buffett and you wont fit in the booth) just really hateful things that I have no right to think. I remember one time when I lived in Bowling Green I had just finished working out at the gym and I had to run some errands. I of coarse looked terrible I had been sweating and was in old workout clothes my hair pulled back with no makeup on. There was this lady all dolled up in her big shiny Hummer who pulled up beside me and just looked down at me like I was trash on the street. Let me tell you I was really mad but not at who you would think. I was mad at me for going out like that and letting someone think something negative of me. Now here is where my flesh came into play and I must say it is a bit embarassing to say. I actually went home cleaned up, fixed my hair. Complained to Sean how angry I was and when he asked me why I cared I said cause I dont wont people like her thinking she is better than me she thought I was some poor person (GULP ) I know bad right. Its even worse if you knew my childhood (not that it was bad cause God gave me the two best parents ever) however I grew up in a very poor family. Which means you would think I would never have said something so rude. Then as if that werent bad enough I actually got in Seans camero you know our NICE CAR and drove back to where she was the entire time ranting and raving in my head about how she didnt know me and that I had more money than she probably knew what to do with. Then I made sure she saw me and I totaly looked down on her of coarse I was a bout 6 inch's taller which made that easier but I was rude and Im not rude it shows how unflattering we can all be sometimes. Now you would think after that incident I would not be so quick to judge a book by its cover but I must confess that at times I do still judge peope rather quickly and sometimes rather harshly. No one has the right to look at someone and think I know them I dont. I prayed a couple of days ago harder than I have in a long time and I prayed that God would allow me to see people the way he saw people. I only want to view people through the Love of God and not through my fleshly eyes anymore. I debated writing this I knew there was a great chance that people would read this and think I am a bad person or a bad christian but then God told me I had to cause you know we are all guilty of this at sometime or another. We may see someone on the street, or in the store, or even on T.V and pass judgement. I realize we are not perfect and wont be until the day we receive our golden ticket in to the arms of our beloved Heavenly Father. However I know as far as I go that it is my hearts desire to honestly see people through God I know there will be times when I may fall but I know when I do God will be there to pick me up and give me strength as he always does when we his children fall short!! I also know that today we put way too much stock into our outward appearance. Just the thought of me going out like to church or to dinner with my family and not being all fixed up makes me very nervous but why? Why do we feel that we have to have the perfect hair, makeup, or outfit. I know because in our hearts we know that everyone else is looking and judging us just they way we do them. Its very sad that that is what we Gods children have become. Im not saying its bad to fix yourself up and feel pretty but do it for the right reasons. If we put more effort into looking pretty on the outside than we do making our spirits more beautiful for God then our priorities are really messed up.
John 7:24 Do not judge according to appearence, but judge with righteous judgment
