I must travel through the past again. I must go back home again to a home that only existed in my mind. God was with me, then the dark times came. I was given away never to be seen again.
I must go back to reclaim myself. It is Gods wish.
There comes a time when you call the people in a family system what they are. Degenerate creeps. God always knew. He knew what would happen to me. He was with me the whole time. If I ended in heaven. He would be pleased to see me. If I choose to stay on earth he would put out extra effort to help me. He has chosen to put out extra effort to help me...
Now, for the next several years I will revisit the truth instead of the fantasy. I must see this for what it is... The raping of my life was not done by saints. It was done by demons. And now Gods slow love moves me to see the truth and call it what it is.. for my sake. He has always known, as he knows everything from all ages. he didn't know how to let me down easy. He allowed me to believe what I needed to believe to survive.
Demons and demonic people are not well understood. It is a difficult thing for a Christian person to dissect such animals. They make i'll sense to the Christian mind. Surly they are of a murky place, A cloudy Pond. They are the carnivore that live at the muddy bottom of the sea scape. They come up to feed by pulling everything downward. Down into the dark abyss that they may feed on it. They are murderers and they worship the father of lies... For it is him that they are in-slaved to take orders; they have no mind of there own.
I am lucky to be alive. I am in great pain. Im better then before.
I live in the real world. A World that I depend on God; I will stay alive. For this is not a natural world for his people. It is a world of the dark one from below. It is his world. Our people inhabit this place until the time. The creatures of the dark to not see or understand the people of the light. However, there is a natural hate. They are ordered to destroy the people of the light; In slave them and destroy them. One must be as smart and cunning as a wolf, yet as innocent as a dove.
I will trust my God and grow closer to him. I will not loose hope... I pray...
I must go back to reclaim myself. It is Gods wish.
There comes a time when you call the people in a family system what they are. Degenerate creeps. God always knew. He knew what would happen to me. He was with me the whole time. If I ended in heaven. He would be pleased to see me. If I choose to stay on earth he would put out extra effort to help me. He has chosen to put out extra effort to help me...
Now, for the next several years I will revisit the truth instead of the fantasy. I must see this for what it is... The raping of my life was not done by saints. It was done by demons. And now Gods slow love moves me to see the truth and call it what it is.. for my sake. He has always known, as he knows everything from all ages. he didn't know how to let me down easy. He allowed me to believe what I needed to believe to survive.
Demons and demonic people are not well understood. It is a difficult thing for a Christian person to dissect such animals. They make i'll sense to the Christian mind. Surly they are of a murky place, A cloudy Pond. They are the carnivore that live at the muddy bottom of the sea scape. They come up to feed by pulling everything downward. Down into the dark abyss that they may feed on it. They are murderers and they worship the father of lies... For it is him that they are in-slaved to take orders; they have no mind of there own.
I am lucky to be alive. I am in great pain. Im better then before.
I live in the real world. A World that I depend on God; I will stay alive. For this is not a natural world for his people. It is a world of the dark one from below. It is his world. Our people inhabit this place until the time. The creatures of the dark to not see or understand the people of the light. However, there is a natural hate. They are ordered to destroy the people of the light; In slave them and destroy them. One must be as smart and cunning as a wolf, yet as innocent as a dove.
I will trust my God and grow closer to him. I will not loose hope... I pray...
