Gah!

my life has been interesting. a lot of things have been happening that i wouldnt have expected. well one thing in particular really...and like awhile ago at family camp the speaker said to write down what we are going to expect God in this coming year and i remember some stuff that i specifically wrote down but there's this one thats really been bothering me cuz i dont remember if i wrote it down or not. but i do think i wrote that down. [i can't check cuz somebody has it inside an envelope that has my address on it, and in 11 months i get it back to see what God has done.] but yea...i honestly think whats going on has been of God. i dont understand it and it confuses the crap out of me. i feel so right about it but yet....i dont understand some of it. and today, i just felt drained emotionally, like REALLY REALLY drained and i went to pre-service prayer tonight and i prayed a lot..i needed what my pastor spoke on tonight sooo bad.


i just wish i knew what God wants me to do right now...