When I think of dating. I think of how nice it would be to hook up with that person that I obviously have something in common with; there personality and mine match...
Do I want to be friends with them. Do I want to spend time with them! I do want to spend time with them.
I have no idea how to have a relationship...
I have had no luck in the friends department... Most people get jealous or mad or something else.
Im with out experience with successful relationships... any kind! Very few!
Most if not all friends have betrayed me. I could not keep there friendship, they turned out pathological..
I do not know who to trust.
I see women with children, there children are damaged by the parents.. or by the women. ALl I see, I want her attention. I don't care what happens to the children... I am a child...
I want a mother figure to take care of me or I have no interest in her!... I want to be taken care of.
I pray about my pathological state towards the children. They are my competition to there mothers attention...
I have been praying about this, and praying about my sociopathic attitude towards a mothers children...
It could be that I have contempt for myself. That my mother never loved me, why should those children complain when they are being abused.
I believe what Im describing is called "baggage"
Im already in therapy...
Im missing a truth!, I really don't care about the other person. I only care about myself and my needs. I pull away from people because I don't give, I take.. Im a taker because I don't believe you.
Im attempting to grow up and understand things..
I pray God can bring me people I can trust... that can some how understand me.. or that I may accept them..
Im having a hard time with people. I think a person needs a thick skin...
I Hate the slime ball shallow way I have to interact with people.
Im not sure what to think...
I need to be myself. Man, this is so hard. Im learning. It is so very hard and lonely and confusing..
Do I want to be friends with them. Do I want to spend time with them! I do want to spend time with them.
I have no idea how to have a relationship...
I have had no luck in the friends department... Most people get jealous or mad or something else.
Im with out experience with successful relationships... any kind! Very few!
Most if not all friends have betrayed me. I could not keep there friendship, they turned out pathological..
I do not know who to trust.
I see women with children, there children are damaged by the parents.. or by the women. ALl I see, I want her attention. I don't care what happens to the children... I am a child...
I want a mother figure to take care of me or I have no interest in her!... I want to be taken care of.
I pray about my pathological state towards the children. They are my competition to there mothers attention...
I have been praying about this, and praying about my sociopathic attitude towards a mothers children...
It could be that I have contempt for myself. That my mother never loved me, why should those children complain when they are being abused.
I believe what Im describing is called "baggage"
Im already in therapy...
Im missing a truth!, I really don't care about the other person. I only care about myself and my needs. I pull away from people because I don't give, I take.. Im a taker because I don't believe you.
Im attempting to grow up and understand things..
I pray God can bring me people I can trust... that can some how understand me.. or that I may accept them..
Im having a hard time with people. I think a person needs a thick skin...
I Hate the slime ball shallow way I have to interact with people.
Im not sure what to think...
I need to be myself. Man, this is so hard. Im learning. It is so very hard and lonely and confusing..
