Forgiveness And Jesus

I was meditating on Jesus today. I was praying to him asking him to guide me. I have been feeling the importance of forgiving my torturers. They took a lot from me but I know Jesus will do his best to bring it all back to me. The story of Job shows me that even though the devil took so much from me, Jesus will restore it more than before. I do not understand how my torturers hurt me so much but I know that me praying for them and forgiving them will help them heal and become better people. Some days it is not easy to pray for them, it is a fight, but Jesus helps me. I very much want to be like a nun, who is dedicated to Jesus. I feel the people who tortured me did not know what they were doing. I feel they did not see me at all, and that they do not really know me.
Today as I read the Bible, in Job I realized how much the devil has hatred for human beings. I feel the devil is the reason my abusers were so cruel to me. They worshiped the devil. That is what Satanist are. I feel the devil was in control of the people who hurt me and that it was not their true hearts to hurt me. I feel the devil wants to destroy me because I desire to heal many people and the devil doesn't like that. As I was reading I got a sense of how evil the devil is, from how evil he was to Job. He wanted to take everything from Job, and then he wasn't even satisfied, he then inflicted boils on Job. How cruel. I feel I don't really understand how evil the devil is, but that he is pure evil. The people who hurt me were controlled by the devil when they should have been controlled by Jesus. My prayer is that they become controlled by Jesus.