For the record
4 May 2013
NOTE: This entry was initially a response on a chat site to a sister's post concerning my entry "Pruning and other fun stuff". As I started this response I came to a point of having to honestly re-evaluate my own beliefs and how I share them.
Rachel has been a very real catylist to pruning and new growth in my personal life.
4 May 2013
NOTE: This entry was initially a response on a chat site to a sister's post concerning my entry "Pruning and other fun stuff". As I started this response I came to a point of having to honestly re-evaluate my own beliefs and how I share them.
Rachel has been a very real catylist to pruning and new growth in my personal life.
My intent was never to start a divisive debate among my sisters. Rachel I know had badly religious zealots have harassed and tried to destroy us, I was a minister and prophet in an apostolic church for 12 years before coming out and they belittled me passing judgement on me and banning me from both my ministry and physical prescence in their church. People can be petty and vicious to anyone that doesn't fit in their box and that they don't understand or can't control. Unfortunately religion is like a self righteous sword they often use to attack their enemies...us and other outcasts. I have every reason to hate and despise them and I confront them in whatever venue they choose to spew their hatred especially our annual Pride parade and Festival. That being said for almost 4 years I have been counselling, mentoring, mothering, or whatever term you wish to use, multiple trans sisters who are younger and just starting their own journey. I have had several sisters attempt suicide or require hospitalization for the overwhelming depression, alienation from their former world of friends and families and most having little or no slef esteem or self worth and I buried a very close sister last July . I can teach my sisters to do makeup, choose appropriate clothing, determine sizes of foundation garments and so forth. That is just decorating a vessel tht is cracked and on the verge of breaking. You are a transsexual woman and should be aware of what they are going through. I have paid my dues in both my present and former life and there has been one constant in my life to keep me going and it was a personal Father-Daughter relationship with my Creatore. If you have had children then you know how hard it is to keep the relationship fresh and alive, they don't go sit in a building waiting for you to show up and they don't point fingers at others to get your attention. They spend time with you, they admire you, trust you implicitly to guide, protect and keep you safe. It has nothing to do with their brothers, sisters, cousins or friends , it is only about you and your child.That isn't rligious garbage, that is life, at least for me it is.
Well my Father, my Daddy, has been that parent and when I see sisters hurting, bleeding and giving up hope I share with them the anchor and source of hope that has brought me through so far. I don't try or desire to correct them, judge them or manipulate them, I just share my story the same as I share the names of my doctors and therapists. This has never been about preaching or converting but it has been about giving hope to those following behind us who are in need of help. Rachel I sincerely appreciate your sharing your thoughts and your personal experiences that have helped formed your thoughts and feelings. You above all others have caused me to go back and re-examine so many of my own beliefs and it has brought new life into areas that were just lanquishing before and for that I am eternally grateful. Be Blessed on all your heart;s desires.
Charlena Marie Andrews-Hayes
Well my Father, my Daddy, has been that parent and when I see sisters hurting, bleeding and giving up hope I share with them the anchor and source of hope that has brought me through so far. I don't try or desire to correct them, judge them or manipulate them, I just share my story the same as I share the names of my doctors and therapists. This has never been about preaching or converting but it has been about giving hope to those following behind us who are in need of help. Rachel I sincerely appreciate your sharing your thoughts and your personal experiences that have helped formed your thoughts and feelings. You above all others have caused me to go back and re-examine so many of my own beliefs and it has brought new life into areas that were just lanquishing before and for that I am eternally grateful. Be Blessed on all your heart;s desires.
Charlena Marie Andrews-Hayes
